I'm getting pretty close to my breaking point. DD doesn't sleep. She's up all night fussing, up all morning fussing, fusses all evening, and when she does finally go to sleep it's for maybe two hours. She'll wake up suddenly and start screaming. My husband is back to work, and I'm not getting any sleep.
My husband's grandmother is here helping out while he's at work, and I'm glad to have her, but I can't totally relax when she's in charge. I went up for a nap (which didn't work, I have never been able to nap during the day and still can't) and when I came down grandma had put DD to sleep on her stomach. I realize that one stomach nap is probably not the end of the world, but the principal of the thing upsets me.
I already cracked and broke out the pacifiers, even though I hate them and think they're gross. But at some point I need my boobs/pinky to myself to sleep and this baby has an intense need to suck.
I wanted to wait until 4 weeks to introduce a bottle (for expressed milk), but I'm so tired... if I don't get some rest I'm going to crack. And I think a nipple-confused baby with a loving mom is better off than a ebf baby with a completely cracked-out nutjob mom. She's two weeks now. I'm hoping if we lay some ground rules for bottle feeding we can keep her nursing too.
I'm so tired of people telling me to go take a nap, because I can't. I just lay in bed staring at the ceiling. I've finally started going up and just laying there for an hour or two to get people off my back.
I know I should call the doctor but my husband is out of town on business today and I am much too tired to safely drive a car. And I"m not sure I can handle a trip to the doctor with grandma.
I'm just so tired... :(