We went for an ultrasound this morning and there was no heart beat. Babe was measuring 4 weeks behind.
I can't wrap my mind around it. I've been sick this whole time. There has been no cramping, no bleeding. But somehow, I know its true. I think I kind of always knew. I've never worried about a pregnancy like I have this one.
I feel so knocked down and depressed. I've never experienced this before and I had no idea how much it hurts...right down to the core. I don't know how to tell people. I just want it all to be over.
I have no idea what happens next since it seems that my body isn't doing things on its own. I'm scared.
I'm sorry to be such a downer. I have no one really to talk about this with. I don't know anyone who's experienced something like this.
I wish you all a happy and healthy 9 months. I've so enjoyed getting to know you all and I'm sure I will continue to stalk you, if you don't mind!
Lots of love, mamas.