I just need to vent a little bit. My edd isn't until June 3, but my midwife has been telling me this pregnancy that she wants me to go early and "will not let me get to my due date". I know her fairly well and she's usually much more chilled out than that, and so I've trusted her for the most part, but I'm not sure I understand why she's pressuring me. With DD1, I was so stressed about not going into labour on my own by 40+5, I consented to induction which wasn't possible (they said) and ended up with a C/Sec. With DD2, I worked very hard to accept that I might go to 42 weeks, so I was perfectly content with remaining pregnant until she was ready to come out. With DD1 I had tried EVERYTHING--nipple stim, castor oil, walking like a madman, tons of sex...no change to cervix. Nothing.
This time, I've been (at midwife's advice) taking EPO vaginally and orally and given stretch & sweeps at 37, 38, and 39 weeks. As a result, I"m dilating, "ripening", cramping constantly and painfully, and losing mucous. No labour though. I'm finding it very tough to get to a place of peace adn I"m generally frustrated by the "natural induction" strategies--if they won't work until my body is ready anyway, why are we doing it?
My midwife actually said "If you aren't in labour by 41 weeks, we'll start to wonder why your body isn't going into labour." I said, "Huh? I'm pregnant. I assume the baby will come out eventually.
Other than this being a second VBAC and a history of 9lb babies, I have no health concerns/complications. I think she's just trying to prevent a cascade of interventions if I go past 41 (and she's mentioned being concerned about my scar being more stressed the longer I go). However, this is just making me insane and uncomfortable. I need to figure out a way to be distracted from it and find peace in these final days.
Maybe there's someone else in a similar boat? Cervix might be ready, but who cares? Baby has her reasons, right?