Where I live, home birth is being challenged and the midwife I was seeing will not deliver my baby at home. This is my second pregnancy. My son was born in a hospital and the nurses/doctors were rude and rough. They did not have any faith in me or my body. I ended up with pitocin, Demerol, and an awful episiotomy. Not the worst that could happen, I know. But none of it was necessary and I was traumatized. This time around I don't even want to go that route. Right now I am casually seeing a midwife/Ob team at a near by hospital, although I feel that is unnecessary also and just a huge ball of stress for me and therefore my baby. My husband and I are secretly preparing for an unassisted home birth. Only telling those who support us (my sister, who had a home birth, and my mother are all supporters)
I'm asking all mothers who have had a home birth with a midwife to share if they think they could have made it without one. I'm also asking mothers who have birthed unassisted (planned or not) whether they would do it again. I've read tons of birth stories and I'm not interested in reading a ton more. I'd just like to know how experienced homebirthers feel about being unassisted.
I personally feel prepared mentally,physically, and spiritually for this