What's going on?
HOLY CRAP Im knocked up! I uhm.. well... Oops? I just threw out most of my baby crap.
Im too old to do this :P I feel like it is way way way too early to say anything to anyone. My immediate family knows and a few super close people know.. my 2 little girls.. do NOT know.
When is your first appointment, if you are seeing a doctor or midwife?
Oh boy.. I have already had 3. One with an OB, one with an OB nurse, and one with a high risk specialist. Labs are being drawn thursday. Next appts are July 2 (regular ob) and July 26th (another scan and high risk OB).
What are you scared or anxious about?
Oh boy,,, what am I not scared about?
I have an auto immune disorder and am sensitive to physical pressure. (Think bra straps, underwear, using hand tools, walking on hard surfaces, etc) and chronic swelling. As a result I have an altered immune system due to high dose IVIG infusions. It is all okay in the end, I have had this issue for years but uhm this pregnancy wasn't planned so I didn't have care in place for pregnancy. It has been a huge scramble but I think everything is in place. My birthing options are limited and emotionally it is really really hard for me to come to terms with. I have had one vag birth that was extremely traumatic and a c-section that was midwife attended.. and the midwife agreed when it was time to section -it was time. My c-section sucked for many reasons everything from I am not a candidate for using morphiene (it is allergenic) so my pain was ridiculous to the actual mechanics of the c-section and the whole process... it was just bad. Im really starting to wonder if a planned section is the way to go, where a team is in place, and I can have some emotional support in place. I wont know for awhile yet... they are still reviewing OR notes and trying to figure out everything.
Breastfeeding. I have insufficient glandular tissue. I actually had *less* milk with my second than my first. I produce 6-8 ounces in a 24 hour period using a medical grade pump, domperidone, herbs, etc. I will stunt hunting donor milk once I am close to 6 months along or so... I have to be careful with the breastfeeding crisis.. it almost destroyed my marriage. I was SO very blessed.. my second was completely fed with donor milk. Thank you God. Seriously -the best blessing in the world.. so many people fed my baby and it was just wonderful.. the village came to us. It was scary at times when we got to our last few ounces but we always found more.
I was on ADD meds for 3 1/2 years and I had to stop taking them and Im packing on weight. I am already very very overweight and the excess weight (13 lbs in 3 weeks) has got to be controlled...
What are you most excited about?
OH MY GOD I AM KNOCKED UP. Really? WOW
My husband was dead set against more kids.. but OOPS? I started to get rid of all of my junk in the fall. I am excited. I worked with both of my girls but due to a serious of unfortunate events I am not working. Although I miss teaching, we are going to try and have me stay home with this one. Wow! Like I never saw my babies firsts before, nannies told me or day care told me.. I am going to get to be with my baby. :) :)
Have you bought anything yet? (dont be shy...)
I have a wishlist on amazon that has some staples on it.. a new baby bucket and matching stroller (dude ergo's rock but Im getting old and I will be shuttling 2 kids to preschool/first grade in winter time.. Imma need me a bucket and some wheels to wheels us in to school), I need new baby monitors... I have no baby clothes anymore. I kept my cloth diapers... I am going to wait until I am further along. I am so happy but also really scared.. this wasn't planned and it feels too good to be true. Must be positive.
Ok ok ok momma's.. I think my hormones are going nuts and im babbling on.