Sorry everyone. You must all think I'm such a big complainer. I am just so annoyed to have to deal with baby positioning issues and feel like I'm bombarded everywhere with all of this natural let your body guide you stuff and at the same time I feel like I can't sit back and do nothing or I'll feel like it was all my fault. (total run-on sentence)
Today I have appt with OB so I guess I'll discuss more with her. I went for acupuncture yesterday and I really wanted it to make some difference so I could prove to them that it would move. The practice I go to recommends an acupuncturist who is very fertility/pregnancy minded but a huge PITA for me to get to! I had been going to this acupuncturist since the end of March for general well being issues. He has had his share of pregnant patients and breech babies that turn, but he has a much more varied clientele. I have also been going to a pregnancy/pediatric chiropractor since I was 8 weeks pregnant. I met her when I was trying to get DD to turn. I was seeing her monthly until now that I am 35 weeks and I don't have a head down baby. Now it's more like alternating chiro and acupuncture. I have been doing inversions and yoga and have been mindful of couch sitting and everything.
My acupuncture appt yesterday was heavenly. (He does the moxibustion after the needle part.) I felt like I was totally relaxed. I'm not complaining. I don't feel crappy or anything physically. I feel like I could stay pregnant with this baby for way more than 5 more weeks. I just can't let go of trying to get baby to move. When I was dealing with my last breech baby, I went for hypnotherapy. It was awful. (Hypnotherapist happens to be a doula and was all like go and have your breech baby vaginally and it will turn and blah, blah, blah.) The relaxation I get from acupuncture is way better than hypnotherapy and half as much $.
It makes me grumpy when baby is persistently in same position. DH is going to start getting annoyed with me for being grumpy. Kids are going to start wondering what's wrong. I feel like I'm being completely insane because it's not like everything is automatically perfect when your baby is head-down. You still have to wait to go into labor, could end up with back labor from posterior baby, etc. I just want to take this position thing out of the equation. I am 95% sure that DD was "stuck" in her spot and no amount of waiting would have turned her head down. (After assessment of delivering OB.) Part of me would like to just be resigned that this baby is the same way and I should just let it go, but then I think maybe my body is off balance from having had a malpositioned baby and I do need to get this one to flip!
I have researched all different turning techniques. I have spent much time on spinning babies web-site. I have followed everyone's "tried and true" solutions. I know a c-section is not the end of the world. I know in my heart that I am able to deliver a baby vaginally - I did it once. I just feel like everyone is trying to be all positive about the baby having time to turn and my experience was that nothing worked for me. Ugh! I just want people to just be resigned to the fact that this sux and nothing is going to work. I just want to be off the hook from trying.
Thanks for letting me get this out.