I've only ever birthed unasssited. My first was solo so when I was getting ready to birth my second, I even had some anxiety about how it would feel to have my husband present. Once I was in that birth (and the third) I really appreciated his presence and I think I even recall feeling like it wouldn't have been a big deal to have more people there (as long as none of them were trying to manage me) I also remember that with each pregnancy, I felt really protective over my baby & thought I woudn't want anyone to hold them after the birth, but once I actually gave birth, it felt okay. I felt safe, confident & comfortable with family & friends visiting & holding baby within hours of giving birth...
I am currently 38 wks + with my fourth baby and decided very early on due to some intuitive feelings that this one should be a hospital birth. I just don't feel like staying home is an option this time. I've had several months to come to terms with this & have even felt slightly excited about sharing the experience with my wonderful doula and the midwives I've been seeing. I feel that they are trusting me (one of the midwives even told me at an appt "You & your husband know what you're doing! we'll just stand back with some gloves on just in case." which is exactly what I want) I also feel confident in my ability to stand up for myself & my baby if any unexpected conflicts arise.
(if you're interested in the long version, I've been blogging about it.: this one is about the innitial decision: http://liajoy83.blogspot.com/2011/12/changing-plan-from-unassisted-to.html & this is my most recent thoughts: http://liajoy83.blogspot.com/2012/06/i-figured-id-need-to-have-at-least-one.html)
Anyway, what I'm dealing with at the moment is more of a general anxiety about the hospital. I have sat with the feelings & I know that they are residual, maybe a result of my own forceps birth (which I have done some EFT around & thought I was pretty good with now) Whatever it is, it's like a trauma reaction & not something coming from logical concern. I'm worried that I won't go into labor -- or that I'll end up stalling out -- if I don't deal with these feelings. On the other hand, I wonder if they will be similar to my feelings about my husband being at my second birth, or my feelings about people holding my babies & they will just melt away as soon as my hormones get flowing & I'm in the labor trance... If that's the case, i really don't want to spend any more time dwelling on them cause I'm thuroughly exhausted from overthinking & trying to micromanage this hospital birthplan -- I'm wanting to let go & let it happen!
So that is what I'm asking here: If you transferred or changed your UC plans, did you feel as anxious/uncomfortable as you imagined before hand? Has anyone else gone from ONLY birthing unassisted to having an assisted birth? Any thoughts or experiences would be appreciated.