I don't want to give too much detail of my life here because I'm worried about people from real life finding me.
I've suspected for a couple weeks and confirmed my pregnancy this morning with a home test.
I am devastated to be honest. My partner and I are finally doing well, in fact, better than we ever have. He had a vasectomy last fall. Apparently it didn't take despite him getting the "all clear" from the doctor. We weren't together at the time so I wasn't involved at all in that whole process.
I'm in shock. I feel like I should be crying but I'm completely numb and shocked and knee deep in denial.
I already have kids, my youngest starts school this fall, I was finally going to have a couple days a week to myself after a long haul doing this motherhood gig.
Starting in January I started a program of intense exercise and weightlifting. I was finally losing weight and getting healthy. Now I'm being thrown back to square one.
Pregnancy is supposed to be so happy but I just feel sad and angry and broken about it. I've lost more babies than I've carried to term so I don't even know if I'll carry this baby to term.
I just wanted to join this group in hopes, that if I carry this baby, I can learn to at least not hate the idea of another child.
Sorry for such a downer first post :(