I am unsure of where to go. I was cheated on by an ex boyfriend 6 years ago and I feel that it is realy starting to take it's toll on my marriage. I love my husband and I do trust him but I get triggered by silly things and then my mind spirals out of control with thoughts and worries and I don't know what to do about it. My husband is the best father to our two sons and life has been a little stressful lately we both have been busy and haven't had much time together. He recenly got a birthday card from work and one of the girls in the office signed it with a heart <3 and it really bothered me, who does that to a married man? I had bad dreams that night and then I met her last night at a wedding and she's 9 years younger and really cute and then I just got out of control with negative thoughts. My husband and I talked about it and he knew that it would bother me and reassured me but he did tell me that it hurts his feelings that I don't trust him. I DO.
I'm so lost and don't know where to go because I hate feeling this way, I don't want these feelings and to think that my loving wonderful husband would do anything bad I have such a bad past I'm not sure how to overcome it
Any advice would be really helpful