In my 10 years of adulthood, I've done a lot of work/trade and freelance work. Only a few times have I gotten a "regular" paycheck and I really get used to not having money or regularly dealing with money.
I've been working on some projects right now that will pay once they get out in the public but don't pay right now. I actually haven't made any money in a few months, though I've been working my butt off. (Actually I probably have made some money but I don't even keep track of it, because I'm working on other things)
I think I need to get into the habit of doing at least one thing that pays straight-up at all times. This serves as motivation and also grounds me. Sometimes I feel so much like what I do is not real, when I get so deep into it and yet I have nothing truly tangible to show for it.
I've been thinking of setting up a simple course for my website and maybe charging only a dollar for it, so I know people will sign up and it will force me to work for money. I'm also thinking of applying for jobs on fiverr.com and odesk.com weekly if I don't have other paid work I'm doing, just to keep me focused on my goals with my other projects.
For instance I have a book I should've finished a month ago, and I'm not even sure I've written anything this month. I feel like I'm drifting into a state of future-tripping, rather than being in the moment because everything I'm doing is so hard to connect with the now...I'm alone in it and it is disorienting me.
Can anyone relate to this? I feel like I can't just focus on my blogs, and my ideas and my ebooks and ignore that I want to make money now, not just when I finish this...