Hi there !
First of all, please excluse my english, as it isn't my mother tongue. And secondly, please excuse me for telling you all my story, I hope I won't be too long and bore you !
I gave birth to my sweet little boy Gabriel on march 20th, so he will be 3 months old tomorrow.
I wanted to breastfeed him really bad, but I didn't know if it would be possible as I have had a breast augmentation 7 years ago, with a trans-areolar incision. As you may know, it can result of damaged nerves and canals, so nobody could tell me whether I would be able to have a full supply or not.
The first 3 weeks went fairly well, he was back to his birth weight within 3 days and gain 1kg the first month. But then, at 3 weeks, he started screaming restlessly all day, even straight after a long nursing session, I was exhausted, so I just gave him a bottle of formula, to see what would happen, and he drunk it all super fast. I didn't feel my boobs full anymore, so I thought I dind't have milk anymore (that is what people told me at that time), and transitioned my son to formula.
But I just couldn't be comfortable with formula feeding him, and I wanted to know whether I could feed a baby or not, so I decided to relactate. For the past month, I have been pumping 8 times a day, takins domperidone and fenugreek, and I was able to increase my supply to the point that I almost reach my baby's needs.
In the meantime, I also found out he had a tongue tie, so it was clip 10 days ago.
As my pediatrician advised me, I started to replace my breast pump by my baby 6 days ago, and he is latching quite well. I still pump after feedings to empty my breast, and at night before bedtime because he goes to sleep early.
I am not giving him any complement because he doesn't seem hungry, but I am sooooo anxious about his weight gain, because I cannot see anymore what he is eating. I will have a weiht check on monday, but unitl then, I am constantly cheking his diaper output (OK) and his mood, I am so afraid of depraving him !
My problem is, since I put him back to the breast, he would spend the entire night feeding, comfort sucking, and sleeping with my nipple in his mouth. He gets restless whenever I try to put him back in his crib. I tried to cosleep but I don't sleep well with him sucking on me all night, and I am now exhausted.
During the day he wants to nurse often too, but I can never tell whether he is hungry, or just want to comfort suck.
I feel lost and it feels that I have a newborn at home, it is like the first few days when there is no rythm at all, and I kind of regret the pumping and bottle feeding, because at least we had a rythm and he used to sleep 7-8 hours at night. Now he waked up every 2 hours, newborn style !
My question is : does it get easier ? How can I avoid the constant night sucking ? Will we find a rythm by ourselves, or do I have to force things a little ? How many times should my 3 months old nurse at least per day ?
Any tips would be welcome, because for the moment I just can't stand how exhausting breastfeeding is !!!