For now Im going to skip the back story.. but I am newly pregnant with a surprise #3...7 weeks 2 days and I am 99% sure I will be headed for a cesarean. I had a really bad induction with DD1 and midwife/doula attended hospital birth ending in cesarean for DD2.
I have several high risk factors and for being 7 weeks pregnant, I have already had 3 appointments and one ultrasound. They have me on a 2-3 OB schedule.
This pregnancy is so so different. It wasn't planned or calculated as my other 2 were. Wanted fiercely by me. but not planned. Before, with my girls, we were planning the pregnancy - I had things in place and my mind was in this place of "pregnancy is beautiful and natural". This feels so different. I think half of it is my husband was not on board but is coming around and the other half is I feel like I lose all voice the last month or so of my pregnancy. The extremely short version of my story is I am prone to anaphalaxis /extreme swelling at all times due to physical pressure. Well.. carrying a baby causes a lot of physical pressure and can cause me some serious health issues... (Part of the reason we had a csection with #2 was my cervix swelled shut from the pressure of her descending) It is an autoimmune disorder. I am also 36.
With my first daughter, we took Bradley classes and I had such a good mind space about pregnancy. With my second, very similar.. I felt more armed and even more informed to have a better birth and then my body.. well it did not cooperate. So this time, with number 3, I think I would be better off accepting my limits and working within them but I don't know how to do that w/o feeling like I have an illness.
For the record, this pregnancy so far is going well for me. I had to go off my ADD meds and am hugely struggling with lethargy, weight gain, and insane hunger (3 years being on stimulants and then just stopping is HELL) but otherwise Im okay.
Does any of this make sense? How do you keep the strong woman, happy pregnancy vibe going when even if you feel mostly healthy, you have to have constant medical care?
I am so glad this forum is finally here.. I feel like I can talk without being lectured.