Keuriweo- ahh, the rabbit hole. My dh always remarks that it takes me three times as long when I go into a store and he thinks I am slow..uh, it's because every single thing I pick up I ask myself a million questions about it..heck, I might even googleit in the store, read the ingredients, yada, yada..and so on. For. Every. Product. It's exhausting really. I wish I didn't read so much. I don't know how to reconcile the thoughgts and info I have with just living life, kwim?
I feel like my kids are always "disadvantaged" because they just want to eat what their friends eat, and have what their friends have but I read about it all..and consequently don't buy half the crap. I fear that there will be a healthy bit of retaliation when they get their own money..ug, yes, did I mention anxiety? I'm sorry, I'm probably not making it much better for you. I just know that I feel like I cansay these things here and people don't look at me like I have three heads..like they do IRL.
Has anyone ever seen that episode of portlandia where they are at a restaurant and ask a bajillion questions about the chicken they are about to consume for dinner and the waitress brings over a little fact card about that particular chickens life and they decide to go to the farm to check it out before they order? Yeah, I feel like that every time I go into a store. Green-guilt? Idk.
Seems like everyone is doing some type of move these days! It will all fall into place. :-)
ATM, I am 32weeks. It has taken me 8 months to type more than four sentences on this board.. I just want everyone to know that even though I don't post like I should I am always reading. Takes me forever to type..
I really think this is my pregnancy is about surrender this time. Things have happened in a way that have made me feel abandoned, ignored, catagorized, empowered, satisfied, and now pretty darn comfortable with the way things are going. I still have some anxiety about delivery but like Leann I have decided to just sit in that and move on, let it be what it is..a healthy, normal pregnancy. Gosh, that felt good even typing it out. :-)