AnyaRose--that can be hard...the looks from people. Pregnancy and births in the movies and on tv tend to be exaggerated, dramatic in the wrong ways, and downright misleading. I think as long as you remain true to your authentic self--the one that just is and doesn't care about what other people are thinking, you'll be just great. It's also quite normal to be a little worried. No matter what your circumstances are. I too think of my smiling baby when I'm feeling down. It makes me feel so happy to know he's smiling away in there, no matter how much I'm frightened or scared or worried. We are the protectors...the world around may be tumultuous, but inside us, our babies are warm and safe.
I had my 2nd BFW class today. It went great. Practicing the pain-coping strategies has made me feel so much stronger and more capable of handling an intense distraction. It also has made me realize that I'm really good at finding whatever I can that works. Which I think is the right mentality to have. Needs will change, feelings will change, and I need to feel like I can do whatever.