I am chuckling a little about writing this post, because I wrote something similar two years ago when we were "done" after #3, but clearly we were not. I knew I wasn't, hubby was pretty content with 3 and pretty sure, but I was just not done. So, we got our miracle 4th even when there were many factors against us, and now we are, officially, done. I hate that I am done with this part of my life, and wish it could go on forever...even though just over a week ago I was happy to be done and so uncomfortable and big.
Now, though, after a crazy fast labor and intense delivery a week early, it has been taking me some time to process the fact that I will never again get to be pregnant or give birth. Pregnancy and birth has been such an incredibly transformative part of my life, and I am just very sad that it is over. Everything about it. It is so indescribably special, unique, and empowering, and nothing compares to it. It is a very personal, almost selfish thing that I am feeling, but I am feeling it nonetheless. We are SO incredibly blessed with our 4 healthy babes, and that is our dream come true. We only have enough hands and dollars and bedrooms and time and energy for the 4 high energy kiddos that we have, so I know we are where we should be, but man is it hard to accept that his part of my life is over.
I am so excited for the next chapter and for what is to come, to watch them grow and become good people, to share our lives together and to have a full house. We are so, so blessed.
Anyone else have feelings like this since the birth? Obviously if you are not "done," then it is a different time for you, but for those of you who know you are finished...how are you feeling about it? Thanks for listening to this pregnancy and birth loving post-partum mama!