I am feeling sooo bad! I hurt my daughter (6) today. and she wasn't even doing anything "bad". She was playing with water at the sink and I wanted her to stop (she was bickering with little brother) seh didn't listen.
I yanked her arm to make her stop and she fell off her stepstool. onto her back and her head. and started screaming.
I was ... I don't know. I couldn't believe what I had done. When she fell I tried to stop the falling, and with this I scratched her arm pretty badly, too.
I took her and hold her and apologized and calmed her and she didn't take it to bad.
I feel so horrible. I feel like the worst mother ever. Unfit for children. And I have three.
I cannot control this flashes of anger, it's like a flash of light and then I just do something like yanking or pushing - never hitting (yet).
I am a regular user of mothering, but not brave enough to write with my "real" id...