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[Kamiro]

anyone know what kind of wool fabric this is and where i can buy it? 1handed typing sorry http://www.cuddledown.com/product/childrens-wool-long-john-top.do?code=ISEG012&extcmp=cse_goog_gen_pd&utm_source=froogle&utm_medium=cse&utm_campaign=2012&gclid=COyY1KDehrECFcsZQgodxS8eUg

for wool long johns and baby sleep sack. very soft, slightly stretchy. like diasana?

July means its time to start thinking of our holy days in sept...going to be cold where we are camping at. cant do $50 a pair of leggings, prob could make it much cheaper...thanks ladies! I know we have sewers on here..(like goddess and a few others!)

[cristeen]

It's wool knit. If you can knit (or know someone who can/will) that's the cheapest. You can look on etsy for upcycled longies (or do them yourself w thrift store wool sweaters). Babyoligy used to be a reasonably priced source for longies if they're still around. But paying retail for wool fabric is ridiculous. Cheaper than $50/pair, yes, but Disana is pretty much the most expensive there is.

[Kamiro]

Thanks Cristeen! Just look for wool knit then?

I have a bunch of knit longies for Dodi, but I need to make each of the other girls wool undies too - looking for that wool silky material like in that link.... I bid on a winter 2004 ottobre mag which has the patterns...

thank you :)

I knew someone would know....

[cristeen]

A wool double knit will be thicker and give you more warmth. A wool jersey will be thinner and have more stretch. Regardless of which you get, it's tyically a good idea to prewash the fabric once to felt it just a touch. It makes it less stretchy, but easier to work with. And then handwash the finished products. I havent found any of the so-called washable wool garments of that type to actually be washable.

I'll try to check my stash this weekend, I know I bought some of that fabric years back. I'll see if I labeled it.

[Astraia]

Originally Posted by MLog 

A lot of people are commenting on how I haven't started pumping or trying a bottle yet.  I'm starting to feel defensive about it.  I know they mean well, but I'll have to pump and have bottles for DS five days a week starting at the end of August and even though breast feeding has been extremely painful for me, I don't want to give up this precious time I have with DS since I feel like it's already flying by.

This having a baby thing is so bizarre... it seems like we've mostly seamlessly adjusted to the new normal, but then several times a week DH and I will look at each other and wonder how it is we got to this place in our lives.  We have a baby???  How did that happen???

I also totally meant to comment on this last night. You have every right to delay as much as you can- the only issue being that hopefully he takes it. I started trying really hard to get my DD to take a bottle at around 3-4 months, just so I could leave every now and then. It was an absolute no go, horrible disaster, until my milk dried up with my next pregnancy and she was starving. Some babies don't make a smooth adjustment, so you may want to give yourself a few weeks of leeway just to make sure things transition smoothly. I'm sure you will do this and this is totally redundancy to even bring it up, but just in case! Although if your baby takes a pacifier (none of mine have) then you can probably move to a bottle with more ease.

It's amazing how a baby can be like the most natural "you've been here forever, it seems" sort of thing... and the craziest, weirdest thing ever all at the same time. Totally get that.

[Astraia]

bubble, just delivery. thank god, since jeff is gone today! we're hoping mid next week to start on it.

[MeredithA]

Took Deacon out to dinner with some friends last night at our favorite Mexican place....& it completely overwhelmed our poor baby! I think it was the noise. When we first arrived, he was wide eyed & looking around. I held him close w/ his head resting on my shoulder so he could see everything. We got a table and ordered & by then he started looking upset, wimpering a little and kicking. I put him in the sling & kissed his head, but he still seemed agitated. Then all of the employees started clapping & singing for a birthday at the next table. That was it. Deacon didn't cry but he looked scared & had the most pitiful frown. DH took him outside on the patio. I shoveled a few bites of food in my mouth, said goodbye to our friends, and that was that. Oh the joys of dining out with a newborn. Won't be doing that again for a while!

He usually does really well in public & seems happy to be out. A loud Mexican restaurant on a Friday night just isn't his scene.


Mlog, DH & I still are like "woa this is OUR baby?!!" sometimes too haha. The other night DH came out of the bedroom and just stopped & looked at me & said "hun, there are a bunch of people we made in there" lol! Love it. And yes, at the same time I can hardly remember what life without them was like. <3

[BubbleMa]

Originally Posted by Astraia 

bubble, just delivery. thank god, since jeff is gone today! we're hoping mid next week to start on it.

Oh, that's good!  I was thinking you had to do all that last night.  I was worried for you!

Originally Posted by MeredithA 

Took Deacon out to dinner with some friends last night at our favorite Mexican place....& it completely overwhelmed our poor baby! I think it was the noise. When we first arrived, he was wide eyed & looking around. I held him close w/ his head resting on my shoulder so he could see everything. We got a table and ordered & by then he started looking upset, wimpering a little and kicking. I put him in the sling & kissed his head, but he still seemed agitated. Then all of the employees started clapping & singing for a birthday at the next table. That was it. Deacon didn't cry but he looked scared & had the most pitiful frown. DH took him outside on the patio. I shoveled a few bites of food in my mouth, said goodbye to our friends, and that was that. Oh the joys of dining out with a newborn. Won't be doing that again for a while!
He usually does really well in public & seems happy to be out. A loud Mexican restaurant on a Friday night just isn't his scene.
Mlog, DH & I still are like "woa this is OUR baby?!!" sometimes too haha. The other night DH came out of the bedroom and just stopped & looked at me & said "hun, there are a bunch of people we made in there" lol! Love it. And yes, at the same time I can hardly remember what life without them was like. <3

:(  Poor baby.  I bet he was totally overwhelmed.  *I* even get overwhelmed at places like that sometimes!  We took Layla to the restaurant while SO was working the day.  She was fine until about the 10th person came over to oogle her.  Then she was just over it.  I had him box up our food and we were out of there.

[MLog]

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Originally Posted by BubbleMa 

Oh, that's good!  I was thinking you had to do all that last night.  I was worried for you!

:(  Poor baby.  I bet he was totally overwhelmed.  *I* even get overwhelmed at places like that sometimes!  We took Layla to the restaurant while SO was working the day.  She was fine until about the 10th person came over to oogle her.  Then she was just over it.  I had him box up our food and we were out of there.

Originally Posted by MeredithA 

Took Deacon out to dinner with some friends last night at our favorite Mexican place....& it completely overwhelmed our poor baby! I think it was the noise. When we first arrived, he was wide eyed & looking around. I held him close w/ his head resting on my shoulder so he could see everything. We got a table and ordered & by then he started looking upset, wimpering a little and kicking. I put him in the sling & kissed his head, but he still seemed agitated. Then all of the employees started clapping & singing for a birthday at the next table. That was it. Deacon didn't cry but he looked scared & had the most pitiful frown. DH took him outside on the patio. I shoveled a few bites of food in my mouth, said goodbye to our friends, and that was that. Oh the joys of dining out with a newborn. Won't be doing that again for a while!
He usually does really well in public & seems happy to be out. A loud Mexican restaurant on a Friday night just isn't his scene.
Mlog, DH & I still are like "woa this is OUR baby?!!" sometimes too haha. The other night DH came out of the bedroom and just stopped & looked at me & said "hun, there are a bunch of people we made in there" lol! Love it. And yes, at the same time I can hardly remember what life without them was like. <3

I totally know what you mean... Monday at work was so overwhelming for DS and me.  DS was so fussy when we got home, enough to make DH concerned.  He asked what was wrong and I said I assumed DS was as overwhelmed as I was.  So we turned off the lights and the three of us cuddled quietly together.  Then on Thursday I made the mistake of taking DS to the mall.  I don't even like the mall (but was desperate for some clothes that fit... yeah right, I was totally unsuccessful.)  DS definitely did not enjoy the mall.  It was loud and crowded.  He was fussy the whole time and refused to nap.  I think by today we've somewhat recovered but I'm learning that we really need to take it easy and stay more low key.  That suits me anyway since I'm pretty introverted.

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Originally Posted by Astraia 

I also totally meant to comment on this last night. You have every right to delay as much as you can- the only issue being that hopefully he takes it. I started trying really hard to get my DD to take a bottle at around 3-4 months, just so I could leave every now and then. It was an absolute no go, horrible disaster, until my milk dried up with my next pregnancy and she was starving. Some babies don't make a smooth adjustment, so you may want to give yourself a few weeks of leeway just to make sure things transition smoothly. I'm sure you will do this and this is totally redundancy to even bring it up, but just in case! Although if your baby takes a pacifier (none of mine have) then you can probably move to a bottle with more ease.

It's amazing how a baby can be like the most natural "you've been here forever, it seems" sort of thing... and the craziest, weirdest thing ever all at the same time. Totally get that.

Yeah, I was thinking we would start trying the bottle at the beginning of August.  That give us three weeks or so.  Of course then I remembered that at the end of July I'll be needing to teach for a three hour stretch with only a 15 minute break so we may need to try a bottle before then.  What do you all think - would it be torture to try and get DS to go three hours with maybe a small snack in the middle?  He usually eats every 1.5-2 hours during the day except for his long afternoon naps.  We haven't tried a pacifier.  I'd prefer not to, but we'll see how that goes.  That's another thing that people (friends and MIL) think I'm crazy for.  Just add it to the list (tried for no epidural, cloth diapers, no pacifier, BF on demand...)  Right now I pretty much just stick DS on the boob if he's fussy and some bouncing and singing don't calm him down.  He's really not that fussy at all, just when he gets overwhelmed.  So many decisions!

[rozziemama]

MLog I think you do whatever makes you the least stressed out. I found last time and again find this time around that it is very difficult to pump milk while home and bf-ing on demand - sometimes all the time... Especially with so much supply. So, it is hard to have bottles frozen and ready.
BUT I also had the experience the first time around of baby refusing the bottle when I returned to work at 3 months
I'll say that the stress of being at work knowing baby wasnt eating all day was much worse than the hassle of pumping.
SO, I've already given DS2 a bottle this time - we were on a long road trip and i fed him a bottle and he just took it. Just like that, no stress.
I honestly think my babies are just different and DS1 didn't like any non human nipple no pacifier, no bottle - he finally took it obviously because he had to but then rejected again once he started solids, and daycare fed him with a spoon like cereal :/
Anyway.

All this to say, you decide, you make the decision that's best for you - but think about maybe trying a bottle before you go back full time maybe because it could be kind of stressful if he rejects it...

Ahh it's been a while since i have been here - we've been traveling - I want to reply to Everyone but I honestly am too tired right now I'm pooped. I'll try again tomorrow!

Originally Posted by MLog 

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Yeah, I was thinking we would start trying the bottle at the beginning of August.  That give us three weeks or so.  Of course then I remembered that at the end of July I'll be needing to teach for a three hour stretch with only a 15 minute break so we may need to try a bottle before then.  What do you all think - would it be torture to try and get DS to go three hours with maybe a small snack in the middle?  He usually eats every 1.5-2 hours during the day except for his long afternoon naps.  We haven't tried a pacifier.  I'd prefer not to, but we'll see how that goes.  That's another thing that people (friends and MIL) think I'm crazy for.  Just add it to the list (tried for no epidural, cloth diapers, no pacifier, BF on demand...)  Right now I pretty much just stick DS on the boob if he's fussy and some bouncing and singing don't calm him down.  He's really not that fussy at all, just when he gets overwhelmed.  So many decisions!

[Astraia]

MLog- there is a lot to be said with just going with the flow. Sometimes you can pre-plan, worry, do everything you're "supposed" to do for an easy transition (or to make your baby sleep or to help them in school or or or) and it just backfires, or what works last week doesn't work this week or whatever. So if you're feeling happy and relaxed and able to enjoy your baby, then go with it. That counts for a LOT, and what comes later can be worried about later.
 

[Kamiro]

Originally Posted by Astraia 

MLog- there is a lot to be said with just going with the flow. Sometimes you can pre-plan, worry, do everything you're "supposed" to do for an easy transition (or to make your baby sleep or to help them in school or or or) and it just backfires, or what works last week doesn't work this week or whatever. So if you're feeling happy and relaxed and able to enjoy your baby, then go with it. That counts for a LOT, and what comes later can be worried about later.
 

sooo true~

[Kamiro]

Rozzie - hope you got a nice date night on your vacation :)

RE: bottle feeding: I take a bottle with me when we go to town to go groc shopping or go to the feed store. If she starts sceaming during the car ride, I can feed her or one of the girls can by holding the bottle. So far only done that twice and the results have been mixed.

Think the nipple is too slow for her now, so going to switch over to the born free one I bought. I really love my glass bottles I have though. Anyways, MLOG you have totally been a trooper with the whole bf'ing thing. To tell you the truth with my previous three even one or two milk blisters would have had me quitting faster than I care to admit.

I say your mama intution is a-ok and you'll know the right time :)

She is TWO MONTHS OLD TODAY! This is just going way too fast. She smiles and coos a lot. I just love this child so much. I don't know if it was this intense with the others (lol probably cause I love them so much today as well) but I just adore her.

How is cloth diapering going for every one? I think we are on 2 weeks of straight CD now and I have to say - going just fine. I love to third a preemie/small prefold and stick it in a thirsties and be done with it. Totally stealing Sarah's idea for the fleece covered elastic...cause I dont really like Snappi's and..pins are scary!

Sandy sent me the most useful blanket! That Anais and Aiden blanket came a few weeks ago and I love how light weight it is. Great for nursing and just general summer blanket. we had our first 70 degree day here yesterday so it was handy. lol

I have made it two months breastfeeding now. I am really proud of myself...It isnt even that big of deal, but I am proud. My hormones are under control (super B complex thank you~) and with the help of the nipple shield, I just latch her on - feed her and it is more conveieant than a bottle! Shes so chunky too!

Beginning Dr Atkins diet today...Yes, I am sure that will bring the boo'ing and hissing from a few of you...but I have done it in the past and felt sooo good and there are so many yummy recipes now. ;) I am way more vegetarian than carnivore, but I can still do it cause of all the vegetables and cheese allowed on diet. The next two weeks will be tough though because veggies are limited to two cups a day until your body switches over.

So today for breakfast, an omelette with some cheese and spinach and a couple mushrooms. Wish me luck...I really need to get about 75 pounds off - 100 would have me singing "I'm too sexy" permanently. LOL

Also doing a 3 mile walk today.

Every one be blessed!

[BubbleMa]

Originally Posted by Onemoreontheway 

Rozzie - hope you got a nice date night on your vacation :)

RE: bottle feeding: I take a bottle with me when we go to town to go groc shopping or go to the feed store. If she starts sceaming during the car ride, I can feed her or one of the girls can by holding the bottle. So far only done that twice and the results have been mixed.

Think the nipple is too slow for her now, so going to switch over to the born free one I bought. I really love my glass bottles I have though. Anyways, MLOG you have totally been a trooper with the whole bf'ing thing. To tell you the truth with my previous three even one or two milk blisters would have had me quitting faster than I care to admit.

I say your mama intution is a-ok and you'll know the right time :)

She is TWO MONTHS OLD TODAY! This is just going way too fast. She smiles and coos a lot. I just love this child so much. I don't know if it was this intense with the others (lol probably cause I love them so much today as well) but I just adore her.

How is cloth diapering going for every one? I think we are on 2 weeks of straight CD now and I have to say - going just fine. I love to third a preemie/small prefold and stick it in a thirsties and be done with it. Totally stealing Sarah's idea for the fleece covered elastic...cause I dont really like Snappi's and..pins are scary!

Sandy sent me the most useful blanket! That Anais and Aiden blanket came a few weeks ago and I love how light weight it is. Great for nursing and just general summer blanket. we had our first 70 degree day here yesterday so it was handy. lol

I have made it two months breastfeeding now. I am really proud of myself...It isnt even that big of deal, but I am proud. My hormones are under control (super B complex thank you~) and with the help of the nipple shield, I just latch her on - feed her and it is more conveieant than a bottle! Shes so chunky too!

Beginning Dr Atkins diet today...Yes, I am sure that will bring the boo'ing and hissing from a few of you...but I have done it in the past and felt sooo good and there are so many yummy recipes now. ;) I am way more vegetarian than carnivore, but I can still do it cause of all the vegetables and cheese allowed on diet. The next two weeks will be tough though because veggies are limited to two cups a day until your body switches over.

So today for breakfast, an omelette with some cheese and spinach and a couple mushrooms. Wish me luck...I really need to get about 75 pounds off - 100 would have me singing "I'm too sexy" permanently. LOL

Also doing a 3 mile walk today.

Every one be blessed!

Layla is two months old now too!  It's crazy how fast it's going.  My midwives keep posting pics of newborns on FB, and it makes me miss it!  How crazy is that?!

Yes, A&A blankets are fabulous.  I keep one in my bag at all times because it's over 90 most days so i dress her super cool, but most places are cold inside so it's perfect for that.  Plus, it's not so heavy that it weighs my bag down.

I know how you feel about being head over heels for the baby.  I feel the same way.  Except I don't think I felt the same about DD1.  I had PPD with her, and while I love her to pieces, I don't remember looking and her and feeling the overwhelming love that I feel now.  It sounds awful, but there it is.

Congrats on making it two months bf'ing!  With all the obstacles we face, it IS a big deal!  I'm proud of myself too. :)

I weighed Layla again yesterday and she's only 11lbs.  She was 10lbs 15oz. at 7 weeks (she's now 9 weeks).  I'm convinced I did something wrong, because that doesn't seem right.  Does it?  I weigh her using a digital bathroom scale.  I weigh myself first then strip her down and weigh myself again while holding her... 

[Astraia]

Onemore- yay for 2 months bf'ing. I know you have struggles with it, and you said before that you get that crawlie, touched out feeling when you breastfeed and motoring through that takes one hell of a determination! I've had that feeling (bfing through pregnancy) and it's really tough to deal with. I'm not enjoying bfing- I never have, but i can't WAIT until we can start solids. In November. Sigh.

I had a dream last night that I was preggo again, and the prevailing thought in my mind for the dream was "yes! Now I can bottle feed formula!" Ha.

I'm thinking about buying some of those muslin blankets. I just have this fear that by the time they FINALLY arrive in our slow-as-molasses mail system, he'll have outgrown the swaddle. no signs of that happening any time soon, but it's holding me back just the same.

B Complex - maybe I should try it. Not sure what it is, but I am supremely crabby. I'm sleeping really well at night (because Everett is, miracle of miracles!) so I'm not overtired, I'm just really miserable all day and not sure how to fix that.

Today was my first day solo. It's only 2 o'clock and it's already kind of awful. We all slept in, which I thought would be a great start, but Orrin woke up screaming, Nigella woke up and immediately shoved Orrin over and hit him in the face (???). Then we went to the park and met up with kids that my kids usually LOVE. They fought, Orrin spent the whole time whining for me to pick him up and the baby just cried and cried and cried. Fabulous. Came home and kids fought some more, baby cried more. Put everyone to bed for naps or quiet time and now Nigella has decided she's sick and is making gagging noises in the toilet - why? Because she's not tired, and when "you bring me to my room when I'm not tired it makes bugs in my throat." I do not understand 3 year old logic, but I also can't make her stop. I brought her some water, frozen grapes for a snack and some interesting books so I'm hoping she'll lose interest in her stall tactics and settle down with some Richard Scarey. 

[BubbleMa]

Originally Posted by Astraia 

Onemore- yay for 2 months bf'ing. I know you have struggles with it, and you said before that you get that crawlie, touched out feeling when you breastfeed and motoring through that takes one hell of a determination! I've had that feeling (bfing through pregnancy) and it's really tough to deal with. I'm not enjoying bfing- I never have, but i can't WAIT until we can start solids. In November. Sigh.

I had a dream last night that I was preggo again, and the prevailing thought in my mind for the dream was "yes! Now I can bottle feed formula!" Ha.

I'm thinking about buying some of those muslin blankets. I just have this fear that by the time they FINALLY arrive in our slow-as-molasses mail system, he'll have outgrown the swaddle. no signs of that happening any time soon, but it's holding me back just the same.

B Complex - maybe I should try it. Not sure what it is, but I am supremely crabby. I'm sleeping really well at night (because Everett is, miracle of miracles!) so I'm not overtired, I'm just really miserable all day and not sure how to fix that.

Today was my first day solo. It's only 2 o'clock and it's already kind of awful. We all slept in, which I thought would be a great start, but Orrin woke up screaming, Nigella woke up and immediately shoved Orrin over and hit him in the face (???). Then we went to the park and met up with kids that my kids usually LOVE. They fought, Orrin spent the whole time whining for me to pick him up and the baby just cried and cried and cried. Fabulous. Came home and kids fought some more, baby cried more. Put everyone to bed for naps or quiet time and now Nigella has decided she's sick and is making gagging noises in the toilet - why? Because she's not tired, and when "you bring me to my room when I'm not tired it makes bugs in my throat." I do not understand 3 year old logic, but I also can't make her stop. I brought her some water, frozen grapes for a snack and some interesting books so I'm hoping she'll lose interest in her stall tactics and settle down with some Richard Scarey. 

Order the blankets!  They're great for so much more than just swaddling!  :)  When I was working there were several kids that used them as nap blankets.  And they were 1-3 yrs old. :)

Sorry to hear about your crappy day.  :( 

[Astraia]

Bubble- I'll think on it another day or so... I'm frugal on the most stupid things sometimes.

And my day got remarkably better- Nigella had a great quiet time and came out feeling much better. Orrin napped 2 hours, and Everett napped for 4. The older kids then spent a couple of hours out in the back yard digging for worms. I scrubbed out the pocket part of my cloth diapers to try to get rid of the weird residue on them and boiled the soakers before washing them all together in a diaper-safe detergent in hopes that it will make them better (if it doesn't, I'm throwing them out- this was my last big hurrah before I give up and buy new ones). Then I made some lotion, made dinner, ate dinner and then Everett woke up. Not too shabby.

[BubbleMa]

Originally Posted by Astraia 

Bubble- I'll think on it another day or so... I'm frugal on the most stupid things sometimes.

And my day got remarkably better- Nigella had a great quiet time and came out feeling much better. Orrin napped 2 hours, and Everett napped for 4. The older kids then spent a couple of hours out in the back yard digging for worms. I scrubbed out the pocket part of my cloth diapers to try to get rid of the weird residue on them and boiled the soakers before washing them all together in a diaper-safe detergent in hopes that it will make them better (if it doesn't, I'm throwing them out- this was my last big hurrah before I give up and buy new ones). Then I made some lotion, made dinner, ate dinner and then Everett woke up. Not too shabby.

i'm the same way.  i'm glad your day got better.  i had the same issue with my pockets.  i bought them used, and they repelled big time.  scrubbing the inserts with blue dawn finally worked.

[rozziemama]

Astraia-- does everett nap for four hours STRAIGHT?! Kai will only stay asleep longer than 5 minutes if he is in the Boba or stroller. I even tried swaddle during the day (have only been at night) but ... He still wakes up - its like he turned 8 weeks and emerged into the world and can't sleep during the day?!

I am in the middle of the worst week with DH gone - my parents are here to help but still...
My evening ended with the baby projectile vomiting onto my three year old. Ugh.
I think I have to go to bed now.
Feeling pretty lousy - vacation was not so relaxing for me and DH and actually we started to argue a bit.
And I haven't exercised for like almost two weeks now due to all the traveling and now DH being gone. In California until the red eye Saturday morning.
Ok, I guess I'm in a crap mood.
I'm so sorry for coming on here and just complaining!

I hope everyone else is doing better than me!

Originally Posted by Astraia 

Bubble- I'll think on it another day or so... I'm frugal on the most stupid things sometimes.

And my day got remarkably better- Nigella had a great quiet time and came out feeling much better. Orrin napped 2 hours, and Everett napped for 4. The older kids then spent a couple of hours out in the back yard digging for worms. I scrubbed out the pocket part of my cloth diapers to try to get rid of the weird residue on them and boiled the soakers before washing them all together in a diaper-safe detergent in hopes that it will make them better (if it doesn't, I'm throwing them out- this was my last big hurrah before I give up and buy new ones). Then I made some lotion, made dinner, ate dinner and then Everett woke up. Not too shabby.

[BubbleMa]

Originally Posted by rozziemama 

Astraia-- does everett nap for four hours STRAIGHT?! Kai will only stay asleep longer than 5 minutes if he is in the Boba or stroller. I even tried swaddle during the day (have only been at night) but ... He still wakes up - its like he turned 8 weeks and emerged into the world and can't sleep during the day?!
I am in the middle of the worst week with DH gone - my parents are here to help but still...
My evening ended with the baby projectile vomiting onto my three year old. Ugh.
I think I have to go to bed now.
Feeling pretty lousy - vacation was not so relaxing for me and DH and actually we started to argue a bit.
And I haven't exercised for like almost two weeks now due to all the traveling and now DH being gone. In California until the red eye Saturday morning.
Ok, I guess I'm in a crap mood.
I'm so sorry for coming on here and just complaining!
I hope everyone else is doing better than me!

You have to be able to complain somewhere!  I hope tomorrow is better for you!