Jenny- thanks for pointing that out, I didn't even notice but yay for 1000th post! I am glad you seem happy if your pg test were positive. I think I might literally fall over and die. Not because we don't want more kids but the past several months have been huge in transition and I need some normal before another pregnancy. Plus, we are planning on adopting the next two so that would be a kink in our plans for sure.
saudade- not sure about the hair loss. DS definitely lost almost all of his hair around 2.5 months but I never saw it on the pillow. He didn't have dark hair so maybe I didn't see it. I just remember being sad that his fell out. I am so sorry that you are sad about supplementing. I completely understand and I would be sad too. Feel free to be sad but don't let it be a reflection of how good a mommy you are because you have been working so hard and doing awesome. Many hugs.
adore- sorry about the rough time/feeling at home. I have been feeling super down and blue and then I feel guilty because I really have a great life and no reason to feel that way. I hope you feel better very soon. Glad the next day was better.
Arby- yeah my carrier obsession is insane. I think I have found the perfect carrier that combines the security/snuggles of a wrap with the support and ease of the ergo. It is called a tula and it is made in poland. I am emailing the maker to get a better idea about my specifics. I am going to sell my beco gemini and wraps to be able to get it because I do not need all of the carriers I have and I want an SCC for the support and ease. So sorry about the daycare. is there another option?
Jess- I am sorry you are so discouraged, you are definitely working very hard! Keep trying! You might not have to pump for a year, it is very possible that she can get the hang of it and latch soon. I am in awe, the little bit of pumping I did with ds I hated.
courtney- um ok I am ridiculously excited about you coming up to nc to visit!. It isn't always 100 degrees up here lol. but yeah it can get horribly hot. Hoping to catch a break in the next two days, for the past week it has been in the 100s with the "feels like" temp being in the 110s. crazy. I don't know how you do it with your DH out of town. I know you just have to do it but I am impressed. One of the reasons we moved was so that DH wouldn't have to work weekends regularly too. It seriously messes with my psychological/emotional state to not get a weekend with him at least every other week.
AFM- the whole noise thing feels like a hamster wheel because I want to help DD be adaptable to noise but I also don't want to spend all of my time now working on sleep. So, for the time being, we will just see what happens lol. I have been feeling blue and I think part of it is the whole moving to different states and not being able to go anywhere in the car thing. DD starts screaming 5-10 minutes in because she gets sleepy and wants to sleep but it takes her 30 minutes at the very least to fall asleep. I just cannot do that to her and DS. It makes me sad because I have friends I want to visit but I cannot get to them and there are play dates that DS would really love but I cannot drive there. On top of that, the crazy weather has made it so I can't get out to the park every day and it just sucks to be inside for a lot of the day every day of the week. I hate being all sucky about life because I can't really complain. DD is getting so crazy addictive because she will be awake a lot longer and so smilely. I am still waiting for that elusive laugh but she does a shriek squeal thing that is adorable. My shoulders are dying carrying her but I so cherish these snuggles. I have been so wistful about how grown up DS is now and how quickly it all happens. Definitely not ready to be done with babies. Hope everyone is doing well. I really appreciate reading how everyone is, it might be some of my only social outlets for now.