Caly, I didn't read this before I pm'd you, how very sad. It is great you are going to be able to go see your friend, though. It will be sad but so meaningful for her to have you there, I'm sure. I would definitely want to take huz and Lyle with me if I were going to be gone that long. I think it will be a comfort for you on such a trip and you won't have the added stress of separation and pumping and all that jazz. I also didn't realize A was already back, how sweet about the smile!
Rosie and Birdie, thanks for the reassurance. So glad to know I am not the only one who has felt like this. It seems weird to be afraid to be alone with your own baby, but there it is. I like your idea, Birdie, about trying to make some small goals of getting things done besides just caring for him. I think it will make the day go faster. I need to get into my babywearing groove, too, I still feel awkward about it. We got a ring sling from a friend this weekend and DH has tried it but I have not. I need to keep practicing with the sleepy wrap too.
Birdie, let me know when you try that chicken. We're on our second batch, yum!
Tomorrow is our big day home alone. I am not feeling as nervous tonight as I was previously. I have had several friends say just to call if I freak out, so that's reassuring. I told my one friend that if I really panic I'm just going to show up braless at her house with Lyle. ha!
We're still having some rough/colicky (?) nights. Last night I nursed him through it with some significant breaks, so I feel good about that. I was skeptical I'd really get another letdown after an hour of nursing but I did. Amazing. We're getting some gripe water tonight, hopefully we won't need it. This doesn't happen every night. I don't see a connection with anything in my diet or much else, but will keep on the lookout for patterns.
I wish the LC I had seen would have addressed my questions about trying to build a small stash pumping while still nursing. We really can't afford another one at this point. I still struggle to see any feeding pattern (and we track religiously with the Baby ESP app, we are such nerds but after all the doctors and hospitals we got into the habit and figure why stop) so until I do, I don't know when to pump. Need to find some time to do more reading about the whole thing.
I can't believe August is winding down and all the ladies in my DDC are having their babies. I hope that Lilytiger and andaluza join us over here eventually. I was lucky to have a great DDC and some great bajingo ladies in it with me. I am sort of sad that I think the pregnant bajingos thread will be dying down for awhile, there haven't been many new members. We need to channel some babydust to the TTC thread.