Nicole (Tayas' Mom)
I am very sorry for your loss. I also lost my daughter. She was my third child and only girl. She went into resp. arrest in the ER and the doc was unable to intubate her. This was back in 07, and I am still angry and bitter and my faith was also shaken to the core. I understand, and again, I'm so sorry.
People are so inconsiderate. That is the biggest thing I learned that most people will not understand. I can't even go to the place where my water broke the first time and its be 2.5 years. I have had each baby at a different hospital because the idea of going back to a hospital where I lost a baby is not ok with me. I am so sorry. You should not have to go back to work until you are ready. <3<3<3 And even then I would think if you wanted to work at a different place that would be totally normal and understandable.
I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter, Taya. Although I have not experienced the same thing you have, taking things minute by minute (as you mentioned in your first post) is something that I find very helpful in times of pain and loss. For me, those minutes begin to stretch into hours and days and I can take things hour by hour or day by day, but that takes time and there isn't a specific timetable for that happens. As you navigate your path ahead, I'm sending lots of support and love to you and your family and will keep Taya in my memory.
Thank you for the update and for sharing stories about Taya; her name is beautiful and I can definitely feel that Taya is alive in your heart and in the memories of those who knew her and those who get to hear about her humor, love, personality, and life. I'm glad things are getting a little easier at the moment.