Thank you everyone for the positive thoughts.
DH found the test yesterday, and totally blanched when I confirmed my pg. MIL is visiting us right now, so that somewhat limits discussion (which I'm OK with at the moment). His immediate reaction is that this will totally ruin any plans for future travel/liberation from his demanding job....it will delay my return to work (i.e. my ability to contribute $$)...and that his immediate thoughts were to consider "options". In theory I support "options", but feel very conflicted when it comes to ME considering "options".
I feel like either way we go on this, one of us is going to end up very hurt.
Sorry ladies. I need somewhere anonymous where I can tell what is really going on....
I am so sorry and this is the perfect place to vent. I know when ever I have told my DH about a pregnancy there are like visible $$$$ spinning in his eyeballs and all he can think is WTF do we do now! But he comes around and the money never seems to be a real issue in the end (and he does this even knowing we are TTC or open to another) so I can only imagine how blindsided your DH feels. I hope he comes around and finds a way to support you in this, I hope he will because he will get tremendous enjoyment out of this little one.
AFM - I finally got a call back from a nurse who said my NP agreed to order beta draws for me. I had one done today and will go back Thursday, don't know the results of today's yet. I have never had betas this late and I would also like a look at my progesterone, but not sure that will be ordered for Thursday or not. I am nervous, I have some bouts of nausea and feeling yucky and have had round ligament pain already, but I just need some more reassurance. I really want to sit back and enjoy this whole experience and not be scared the whole time! We have told a few people and through some round about way my sister found out from someone else and is pissed at me, so I am pissed that the chain of people she found out from even knew because of course if I was telling anyone my sister would be the first aside form DH and my Mom! Nothing I can do about it now. She really isn't that upset, just a little hurt and I would be too. DD3 is super grumpy today, teething stinks and nothing is going to make her feel better, if i were not pregnant I would be having wine by now to dull the tingling of my nerves form the crying! Well, that really isn't true, but i would be looking forward to a glass later tonight!
ETA - I am going to the OB office for an initial visit with blood work and ultrasound in a few weeks and will start visits with my MW to prepare for the HB at 12 weeks.