Hey there everyone,
I am glad I found a site that can offer support.... I need it. I am at wits end!
My son (6 yrs old) was diagnosed with PTSD when he was 2 years old. The PTSD led to an Anxiety Diagnosis. We've had ups and downs and things have been bad then great for several months at a time. I have managed the last 4 years with therapy sessions as needed and our last one took about 8 sessions or so and they "released" him from therapy. We went 8 months almost without any real issues.
One day in May something (not sure what) triggered a PTSD flashback and he hasn't been the same since. Anxiety is at an all time high, the tantrums and violent lashing out is unreal. He holds a lot of anger toward me for "taking his daddy away" and at his age doesnt realize what I saved him from (when I found out). So his tantrums are ONLY DIRECTED AT ME.
He freaks out over little things but allows other adults when I am not around to talk him back down before he falls over the edge. With me- he gets more angry when I talk to him and lets himself fall over the edge without so much as an attempt to control himself. He falls into violent rages or screaming and crying fits and eventually is so far out of control he can't control himself and starts pleading with me to help him stop. It breaks my heart. The worst part- is when it is said and done with he usually doesn't remember how bad it got. He remembers getting angry and throwing a fit- but if I tell him you pushed mommy, or you ran out the front door etc.... he gets upset again and insists he did not do that. It's like he doesn't remember it at all.
Yesterday at the clinic his ped wanted to run a blood panel for his allergies. And he flipped out over having his blood sucked. He started screaming and running (and this was only after hearing her say "I'd like to get a quick blood drawn as opposed to the spot testing that requires 6 pokes". He went into full panic. We could NOT calm him down. His ped immediately referred us to pscyh to talk about med management.
I have a 4 year old daughter as well who needed the same work done- so I took her up to the lab and he kept freaking out wanted me to promise him it would not happen to him too. I couldn't make that promise. He was going ballistic and they called in 4 other people to help catch him and pin him down to get it done. (NOT exactly beneficial for PTSD) He was carrying on so badly- that security came running and started pacing the floor outside our room.
It was miserable. I feel like meds might be our only option now- but I HATE the idea. He's done soo well for so long and to have a set back like this............. I am at wits end. I love him soo much but differentiating between normal 6 year old tantrums and anxiety tantrums is exhausting. Handling them with consequences and still teaching my daughter what is allowed and not allowed is frustrating.
And listening to him on the back end of anxiety attack cry and ask me why God made him this way is heart breaking.
I am just frustrated and heading down a path I thought I had avoided.
Edited by JesIsa - 7/19/12 at 8:59am