I feel cheated
First i am so sorry. You were def cheated. I would file a formal complaint with the hospital about the nurse. That hhrlped me find some closure.
Im so sorry. Its going to suck. Its hard to not look back and be angry. there are support groups as well as counsellors who specialize in birth trauma. Talkinga bout it helps.
Make sure too if you don;t get response that you file again. Also I wrote a letter to the head administrator just is case. I also went online and left bad reviews on every possible outlet I could.
I'm so mad for you. What hospital was it at? This makes me want to make a website where people can go to see the stories about hospitals in the area.
You can be completely happy about how healthy your daughter is and completely unahppy about the way you were treated during and after the birth. I love my DD, but I do not love my CS scar, or the lies and drama that went with it (not as obvious as yours, they took me away from DH before misbehaving so I have no one to prove what happened). Please do complain, I complained about the one verifiable problem we had and both the hospital and my OB got back to me with an apology and said tehy were adding some new oversight rules to fix it for next time. I probably should have told them everything that went wrong but I found it hard to admit to myself that I basically got duped (and also, its hard to articulate one's feelings while pantless, just saying). Be loud, be honest, be nice ifyou can, and I pray it all helps the next mama who goes there.