It sounds like you have a great option with Kaiser WC! And, so glad to hear that your midwife will be there for you too. Don't give in to that nagging "failure" feeling!! (I know it and fight it too). You are already a wonderful mama to your baby boy. Hopefully you can check this new place out soon and get everything in order so there aren't any more unknowns and you can just focus on relaxing and feeling your best.
P.S. I met my new family doc yesterday and I mentioned to him how my BP had been fluctuating and I was concerned about it, and he had me try this biofeedback breathing device called Resperate that is an fda-approved treatment for high BP. It basically involves an ipod type thing that directs your breathing with music, and a sensor that you place on your diaphragm. My BP wasn't alarmingly high to begin with, but after sitting in a dark quiet room and doing the breathing for about 10 minutes he checked it again and it had dropped significantly! I was impressed. Of course, it costs about $300 with a prescription, but it was cool to realize how much just proper breathing and relaxing can influence BP.
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