WOW! I totally want a blue moon baby! ... "once in a blue moon..." ... gah! I'd feel like I'd totally have to pick a stellar (as in, star/moon/heavens-related name) if that truly happened! Wow! I dont' know why that just gave me chills, but it did! Maybe because it really could happen! (my EDD is Sept 8th) ... not likely (no babies before 41 weeks for me thus far), but.. maybe?!
So much activity lately here! I think we're all beginning to really feel the time crunch of how little time is left and there's so much that goes on in the last trimester as we prepare meals, clean homes, clean clothes/diapers, ready spaces for our LOs to sleep/rest/exist, prepare birth kits/birthing spaces, etc, etc... Wow!
I know I've been feeling the crunch, but I've also been feeling So Much More this time around. So Much More _______ and it would be true! So much more tired, exhausted, worn out, exctied, nervous, 'heavy', large, ready/NOT ready! ... Seriously... even just now after getting my girls to bed (thank the heavens they went to bed smoothly... last night dd4 was up a LOT up until about 1 a.m., then dd3 had an upset stomach and thought she'd puke, so I was up with her multiple times between 2:30-4 a.m. .. then had to get up at 6:30 a.m. :( ), I still had to load up the dishwasher and the whole time my belly just felt heavy and tight. Not painful, just heavy, tight, and made it hard to even walk around. So... I finished up dishes and came on here. I'm good to go in the mornings, but by the evening my body is d.o.n.e. Doesn't help feeling like baby is so low I'm going to pee my pants with every stinking step because my bladder is so squished (and I am really trying to stay plenty hydrated as well because it was just about 100* again today).
On top of physical trials, today was a very emotionally trying day for me. DD1 (10) has a friend that I dont' mind, but I DO the friend's mother (FM from here on out for ease of story-telling). FM really isn't all there. Literally. I hear much brain-frying is due to over-indulging on perscription meds... but she's just really not there and she just gives me creepy/negative feelings. DD1s friend isn't so bad, except when she gets her mom's phone and calls my cellphone five times in a row (which I don't answer if we're busy with family or other activities) or texts "pweese, pweese, psweese, pweese (repeat 15 times) can i play with madalin?" (always spelled wrong) and then sends that message a couple times in a row. I'd be quite upset if my dd1 was sending texts like that to another parent's phone, but .. clearly I have different standards... ugh... anyway... we've been quite busy this summer (THANK GOODNESS) so they haven't been able to get together, but today FM drove the friend over here to see if dd1 could go over there and play. I had reservations about it all (always do), but figured if I allowed it today, it would maybe tide them over for a while... so I said dd1 had to be home by 4:30 and FM said sure. .... At 4:30 dd1 calls while I was helping dd4 in the bathroom and left a voicemail that they were running behind, but she'd be home soon. Then she called at 4:50 and dd4 was upset so I couldn't hear everything, but said something about FM not being ready and that FM had to go to the grocery store... so I asked dd1 to be taken home BEFORE they went to the grocery store ... I was hoping for an early dinner so everybody would maybe go to bed early... Finally at 6:12 p.m., dd1 gets home. I. was. livid. I was about to gather up the younger three and start walking (there are only two grocery stores here)...(oh, and I couldnt' drive to look because dh took the vehicle to work today). Nearly two hours later than I had requested she be home and FM *FINALLY* brings dd1 home. I had cried, I had been swearing up a storm (in my head anyway) and just generally feeling so out-of-control about it all. I trusted this woman with my daughter's well-being and felt completely disrepected by her actions.
(crap... dd4 is up)