A little background to what has triggered my doubts..one MAJOR reason is..get ready..socialization. I know all of the arguments regarding this..but I still worry that sometimes, being the adult that I am, I do get bored with play and wonder if she would be better off surrounded with lots of children who are never bored with play. I am also an introvert and suffer from depression and anxiety..it is treated, but I feel like when she sees me at my worst, I am ruining her..if that makes sense? My social anxiety kind of holds me back at times too, and I am afraid that could interfere somehow. My fiance and I both can have a low level of patience at times..which I guess is normal. I also worry about providing her with everything she needs while tending to her younger sister. It is all just so overwhelming. The past yr has been tough with PPD struggles and while I am ashamed to say it, we have used WAY too much tv and our relationship is kind of off. I guess I am just overwhelmed and REALLY scared of failing her..and my other DD.
I try to get us out as much as possible..trips to the park, splash pad, store, farmer's market, library, etc. I also have joined a moms group and she gets to play with others when I meet up with them, which is only once a month. She actually said the other day that she didn't have any friends to play with.. This broke my heart and really made me question if I should consider putting her into school part-time. I don't know.
Sorry this is kind of a lot of info thrown all over the place..I guess I am just looking for some guidance, advice, something. Thanks so much, mamas.