Oh, mamas... it's entering a rough season for sure with all that is going on physically with our bodies (growing, huge bellies getting in the way, difficulties sleeping, heartburn/acid reflux from babies pushing up guts, bladders going nuts with babies pushing down, hips spreading/relaxing/getting uncomfortable, etc), and then the continued influx of crazy hormones, and then the reality that a BABY will soon be here FOREVER and... gah! Life suddenly starts exploding as the Final Countdown begins (it begins for everybody at their own unique time, I think... some feel the crunch when the weeks remaining in pregnancy hit single digits, for some it's six weeks, for some it's a month, etc). I really think spouses/SOs begin to feel this too even if they don't always articulate it quite as well or the same.
I wish all those really struggling that peace will fall upon you. Peace for sleeping through aches and pains, peace with spouses/SOs, peace with children, peace with short tempers. Just peace, radiance, and joy for the lives we've been nurturing all this time.
After all that zen-ness, it's back to reality with heat here. It was only supposed to be 95* yesterday, but of course it was 101*... today was supposed to be 97*, but of course it was 102*... and even now at 10p.m. it's 84* :( I can't sleep when it's that hot. dd4 can't either (which is why she's running around while I"m typing on here... sometimes playing with her train set on a stellar Melissa & Dough train table MIL got us! or climbing on stuff she's not supposed to... ugh... oh well... I can't lay beside her in her bed right now anyway). We'll have to get up early tomorrow for an appointment with the midwife. It should be a good trip. We don't need to spend the money on gas, but it will be good to hit CostCo anyway (I love my small town, but sometimes the grocery store prices are ri.dic.u.lous. ... cereal is something I dont' keep on hand much, and only for a treat... but... a small box of any name brand cereal is well over $5.. peanut butter -- especially the natural kind -- is also ridiculous). We buy in bulk anyway for our soon-to-be family of SEVEN *gasp*... so.. it works out good. ... And along the veins of money talk, I'm hoping to see if my midwife will make a bit of a bend for our payments. I hate even asking, but we have a LOT this month to get to (dh's ordination five hours to the south, travel costs, two nights in hotels, food costs, etc) ... we still owe $800 and it's supposed to be paid by 36 weeks for her to be on call for us. I'm 34w3d today. I'll see if she'll take $400 tomorrow and see if even we can just write a post-dated check (for Sept 1st... dh just gets paid once per month) for the reamaining $400. It would just give a bit of wiggle room that we'll desperately need I think. I guess I'll just ask and see :/ (I hate money... I hate money issues... and I hate asking somebody to break their own contract... the worst she can say is "no" and then we'll just have to figure something out... ... we'll get insurance money, but only *after* the birth... but of course we have to pay in full, out-of-pocket *before* the birth... ughhhh).
My biggest goal right now is making it to Friday and Saturday. Friday's high temperature is supposed to be 85* and Saturday is supposed to be just 83*!! Oh, bliss! Oh sweetness!! Of course I have to travel with all four girls 1.5 hours to the south for a baby shower for a cousin on Saturday.. but.. at least it should be nice and cool those nights. ... I've never hoped for cool temperatures like this in my life, but my house NEEDS IT.