Sunday would have been our sons second brthday. We had a very public loss. Our family came to the hospital. Every year we do things special on his birthday. Its all over my facebook.
My family remebers fine. Some give us space on these days and others give us their sympathies...
But my Partners family never remembers. Which is not a big deal until they all of a sudden start bombarding me with stupid trivial things all effing day. Stupid emails, phone calls abotu dentist appointments. His mothers birthday is in the same week but she can't remember. She has told me over and over she would like to be more involved and talk about the babies we lost.
What really irks me is that she starts posting about my sons 8 moth birthday in a two days. STFU! You remember that so easily but not this? I feel like even though my kids are gone this stuff is important to me. I have made it clear and my family is amazing. But his Aunt calls me over and over that day. I finally call her back thinking she wants to talk about my son whos gone. But no shes NEEDS to know about a denstist appointment I had a few weeks ago...
I want my son to know about them. I want him to know that they saved his life. And if not for them I would not have been able to get the care I needed to have him. I want him to know their birthdays and know how much they still mean to our family. I want to celebrate their birthdays the rest of our lives. I feel like these first ones are so important.
I guess I am just hurt. Just because we have a live baby now does not mean the other ones are gone. We have amazing birthdays for them and I warms my heart to do such wonderful things with my family that day. Until I get effing emails about a photo she found in an album where she looks young. Then every response forwarded to me that people send her about how good she looks.
She just rubs me the wrong way anyway. Am I being silly?