The baby loss forum doesn't seem very active, and I need thoughts from working mamas in particular, so I'm posting here.
I lost the baby almost 6 weeks ago now. I took one week leave and cried the entire time. When I went back to work I was relieved at how calm and "normal" I felt. Since then it's gotten more difficult though. I'm having a very hard time concentrating or getting anything done. (My job is purely mental: think, talk, write are my 3 primary tasks, in that order.) If I could, I would like to take more leave, but I don't know what I'd do while on leave anyway. And leave just means more work to be done later.
I just wish I could hit the pause button on life. I don't know what to do with myself, but doing nothing doesn't feel all the great either. Maybe a counselor would help? It's not normally my cup of tea ...