Speaking of sleep and on the issue of cribs...ds is now sleeping in bed with me since he needs so much attention at night. Dh is in another room, exhiled due to snoring for, I don't know, ever? Sad but I don't have the room to mourn the loss of our sleepy time together. We are going to put lo in a fisher price rock and play in the room with me and ds. When ds was born, I wanted him in the room with us, but he grunted so much I couldn't sleep. Now I don't sleep anyway, so what's harm's a little grunty newborn going to do? And then I think, maybe she won't have grunty tummy issues. Maybe she will sleep like a champ. And then I think, don't you dare get your hopes up!
Faithstuff, I feel like I'm pretty doom and gloom on these posts, too. But I figure, better to get it out here where people can just decide not to read it, right? I would love to just settle in to a happy, peaceful place with this pregnancy. I'm spending way to much mental and emotional energy worrying about how I will cope when she gets here. I'm thinking of going somewhere else to sleep for a few nights just to see if that will help me get my head back on straight. But then I worry that dh will stick ds in the crib and try to "train" him while I'm away. I'd like ds to get used to the idea that one of us is right there so waking at night doesn't have to be terrifying. If I leave I think whatever progress we may have made toward that end might disappear.