I'm hoping maybe you ladies will have some insights for me. I finally got what I wanted, but I don't know how it works. lol
I haven't been a SAHM for almost a decade. I fought to be as much of a WAHM as I could, at least... but when I could pull it off - that was the best I could do. After all that time as a single mom, I remarried. DH really doesn't care either way if I work, and has been totally in support of my being a SAHM for the kids, or a housewife, or a career woman, or whatever it is that I want to be.
I'm TOTALLY LOST. I've completely lost the ability to make decisions based on anything other than the barest necessity. I loved being a SAHM when the kids were little. I was content and fulfilled. I was even thrilled by all the little housewifey things like making cool lunches for xh and sewing the kids' new clothes, and all the things that feel like some weird distant dream now. What I've really wanted all this time was to get back to that point. So, I slowly cleared my work life. I've been a freelance writer. I slowly finished up all my contracts over the last year. I didn't renew them or take on new ones. I passed my clients on to other people. I'm now 100% free of work obligations, and we are still living more comfortably than we ever did when I was single.
So, what do I do with all that time, again? The kids get upset that I'm treating them like babies if I do the chores they're used to doing. We've always homeschooled, but the kids both chose to enroll in an online school this year...so I don't have any lesson plans or grading to do anymore. Most of their activities are within walking or biking distance, and not in need of parent volunteers. I have absolutely no sense of purpose, and it's driving me nuts. I know my family loves me, but it feels like they don't need me. I can't figure out my place.
I don't really even know what I'm asking, but any kind of input or advice or food for thought is welcome.