how is everyone doing?
Eh. Takin it one day at a time.
still in the midst of queasiness?
Yes. I've puked the last three mornings. I feel a lot better after having puked, but then guilty for puking. Not that I was trying to make myself puke or anything. Anyway, I didn't have nausea much with ds at all, now I have it almost all day long. The worst is that I wish I could eat more healthy food, but cooking and healthy food sound so gross. Whenever I've thrown up, it's been something non-junkie. It seems the only think I can stomach is high fat, high sugar, high carb stuff.
is anyone showing yet?
I am petite, so I think I am showing, at least to people who know me. From the back I look normal, but from the front it's all, "Oh, hello, curves."
has anyone told yet?
We've told everyone but our bosses. I'm starting to teach at a new school and I don't want one of the earliest conversations to be about how I'll have to leave 3/4 through the year, find a sub, etc.
how are partners adjusting?
Dh says he will get more excited after the baby is here. I think he will be more excited after we find out if it's a boy or a girl, but we may not find out because our insurance might not cover a 20 week ultrasound, and we really don't have the money to drop $300-600 on an ultrasound we might not need. Money is stressing us both out. We decided to try to get pregnant now because even though our money situation is tough, a lot of other factors were in our favor. My job (though it pays terribly) doesn't require a lot of extra time at home and is close to home. I'm also not yet 35, so we're not higher risk yet. Our parents regularly care for our son when I am at work, and pushing back the addition of a sibling would sort of be pushing it, I think, in terms of how much time we're asking them to spend with our very young children.
We just had to cancel plans for attending our friends' wedding. I had been looking forward to it all summer, but it would mean traveling a couple thousand miles in our car round trip, and we just can't afford the gas, hotel, eating out etc. right now. There is a music festival we will go to this weekend with ds, so that will probably be our summer hurrah.
heard the heartbeat yet?
We saw it at an ultrasound when I was 7w2d. The ultrasound was to make sure some pain I was experiencing was due to a normal cyst, and not anything else. We tried to listen for the heartbeat at my 8 week appointment last week, but the midwife couldn't find it. There was one point though where I think she almost got it. I could sort of hear what sounded like a dog panting for just a second, which is what I remember ds's first heartbeat sounding like. That glimmer, plus the good ultrasound and morning sickness make me feel confident, but I'm really ready to stop feeling so sick.