Cari, I'm sorry for your loss.
I'm a little bummed that it'll probably be at least another month before I have insurance. I feel fine and don't feel an urgent need to see someone, but I'd like to know who my insurance will cover and start interviewing people. I'm a little bummed that we most likely won't be having a home birth. I'm sure the "alternative birthing center" is nice, but I would like to do it at home. I understand why DF wants the technology nearby, and we both had agreed that a birth center would be a great compromise, but there really aren't any anywhere near where we live. The "alternative birthing center" is at a hospital, and consists of 2 birthing rooms, which I've heard good things about. Midwives help deliver there, so that's awesome.
It's different doing this with someone, instead of alone. I don't get to make all the decisions any more :-) It's also awesome to have support and love. Being pregnant is bringing us a lot closer so far, and it's amazing! He's reading "What to Expect" thoughtfully and is spouting off facts to me and bringing up bits to discuss. I appreciate that he wants to be informed and that he fully supports me. I picked up a copy of "Ina May's Guide to Childbirth." I haven't read it before, but I'm sure there will be helpful information for both of us.
We're getting married in 10 days and I tried on the dress my dearest friend wore to her wedding (also at a courthouse) and it just barely fits around my ribs. I have a feeling it won't zip in 10 days, but I really want to wear it! It has some beautiful beadwork along the bottom. I think I'll have to keep searching for a backup dress, just in case. I'm so non-traditional about getting married. I don't care much about the dress and such. I'm SO grateful he is taking care of all the planning! I'll help with the food (lol) but that's all that's left to do. It's a relief not to have too much stress around the wedding.
Now that I've rambled for 3 paragraphs, my mind is clearer and I am off to bed. Sweet dreams, ladies!