I'm only about 11 weeks into my pregnancy, due date is February 28, 2013. For the past three nights or so, My mid-upper back and shoulders have been itching like MAD. It is worse at night, and keeps me up digging until my skin hurts so bad I can't even touch it. I will grab anything to get the itching to stop. Every time I look up my symptoms I come up with the same answer, so finally found a website that described exactly what I believe to have happened. I will post it at the bottom of this post. I used Yasmin when I was 19 for about 2 months, then went off it when it gave me horrible mood swings, then was on a few other oral contraceptives until about two years ago when I used Yaz for a little over a month. When I was close to halfway through the second packet, I started noticing a horrible sharp pain in my upper left side, and this went on a couple of days when I told my mom. She told me that she had seen commercials about lawsuits against the makers of Yaz, Yasmin, and Ocella, because they caused, among other things, gallbladder disease. Well, after suffering and debating surgery about 7-8 months, I used a mixture of herbs to treat it myself, including dandelion root, chamomile, yellow root, slippery elm, and another herb I can't remember now. Anyway, I used the tea for about a month, and my symptoms diminished, then ceased. I was able to eat anything, drink anything, and felt fine. Since, I have had few flare ups, and when they occurred, it was only a couple of days before I was fine again. So, here I am, scared to death that Intrahepatic Cholestasis is the issue. I feel it in my gut. I called my doctor's office today, but they said since I don't have any symptoms except itching (and depression), just keep an eye on it and if I notice any other symptoms to call them back. I have an appointment August 13th, which is in a week, and I hope they will be able to give me more reassurance, but as of now, I am alternating between crying, feeling guilty, and absolutely irate. I knew I had gallbladder problems, but I really wanted to be a mom, and I feel like it's my fault and if I would have been more prepared, this wouldn't be happening. I know I haven't been diagnosed, but I know this is what it is. I'm starting to drink dandelion root tea and capsules of milk thistle, and I hope it works. Will have to see. I guess I'd like to have others to talk to, who know what I'm experiencing, especially the emotional aspect. My mother seems concerned, but she is busy and I don't want her to worry about me, and I feel awkward talking to her about it anyway. My fiance is wonderful, very sensitive and caring about my fears, but he is at work so much, I barely see him. I'm not a very social and have mostly male friends, and they just don't understand. Anyway, I know I need to try not to stress out, but I'm a very high stress person anyway, and with everything else going on, I don't know what to do. I wonder if I should see a therapist, but I don't have insurance yet, still waiting for it to go through, I can't find a job (have a BA in English that's useless), and my fiance is working for a meager 10.75 an hour. We just bought a house, and with all the bills, we are just squeaking by. Now this on top of it, and I feel like I'm about to lose my mind. The itching is going to drive me insane.