So i've been reading birth stories and several close friends have recently had babies so birth has been on my mind i guess. maybe it's also time to process since DS is 7 months old! We had a wonderful homebirth in January that was relatively uncomplicated aside from him being posterior in the beginning so through position techniques we turned him - as soon as he turned i dilated very quickly and pushed for about an hour. he was born cord around neck and was pretty floppy even though his heartbeat was strong throughout. third stage was fine, very little bleeding. we have a beautiful, curious and bouncing baby boy whom we are head over heels for.
I think i'm still dealing with the feelings around him coming out floppy, like maybe it was something i did - or why he was posterior since i had fears about posterior birth my whole pregnancy and did tons of spinning babies - who knows what it is. but i won't be having another baby for at least a year, yet i am already thinking that i'm not sure i want to do it at home - or maybe just not in the same room...like DS' birth is too attached to that space. it might also be the feeling that maybe i got lucky the first time, and since we look at birth as inherently dangerous in mainstream society that part of my subconscious is thinking maybe i shouldn't push my luck? any thoughts would be great ladies, thanks for reading :)