I think I am losing it, I had a breakdown about going back to work. I keep applying for many jobs but get call backs only on daycare jobs, and somehow every postion changes once I am there, the 3 year old 4 days a week job turned into an infant 5 day a week job. I got an offer. I thought i would think about it, and then I lost it. I broke down. I mentally CANNOT care for some peoples babies while my baby is elsewhere freaking out that I left her.
My spousal/child support combined is 2500$ a month, I cannot afford to keep the house on this alone. I could, however afford a duplex or apartment on this amount. I truly believe that kids should be with their parents/mom for the first 2-3 years of life, I truly believe in attachment parenting. Everyone is advising against this idea, everyone but the stbx. He is not thrilled about the kids going to daycare either especially dd. I told him if you are going to end up paying 400-500 a month for daycare if i work, (if I split it) then why not just give me that money to go back and get my teaching license? Really that would be the best bet. My lawyer is totally against me relying on him, but really then what is the darn point of ss/cs? He make 100000$ a year probably more next year, he is not going to let our kids starve, I mean seriously?>
So would you do that plan if you could? Would you continue to rely on the stbx/xh if it meant staying with your child until they were 2 or 3? Right now she is 15.5 months. I have looked into programs and could get a restrictive teaching license in about a year or maybe 1.5 years to teach high school english. It could buy me some time, so I could get a job that actually is a living wage and would start around the time my spousal support ends.