Ugh, we're having a bad night. I nursed Lyle on and off for two hours and he was still acting hungry. I even took a warm shower to try encourage more letdown. Eventually after many tears and cries from both of us, huz had to give him a bottle of formula, and that only helped a bit, he still freaked out for awhile, he was just flailing and kicking so much I couldn't nurse him anymore. He obviously is just having a bad digestive night or something, but also I am just feeling again like i may not have enough supply for him. He's nearing his two week growth spurt.
I am kind of pissed at the LC we saw Tuesday because she told us to totally stop pumping so of course we had no pumped milk and formula was the only choice. Basically I think she should have been more realistic that we might need a plan B.
I just tried to pump, it's been a few hours since I nursed him for any length of time (maybe 3 or 4) and I got about half of what I'd been getting before (25 ccs from both breasts). I don't know if stopping the pumping made my supply drop or I just can't keep up with is night time cluster feeding. During the day he seems to nurse fine to satiation.
I'm also having an allergy attack and feel nervous about taking anything, since we're at such a crucial point, but I may have to take some plain (non decongestant) claritin.
Feeling like we're going to maybe need to see another LC to solve this and I'm sick of people not being realistic, comprehensive, and helpful. I don't know if it's realistic to expect us to be able to transition to EBF with no back up plan.
I also kind of feel like I'm in a fishbowl within my circle of friends and acquaintences, who are huge BF advocates. One of them told me I needed a postpartum doula, "which may seem expensive, but so is formula and losing your confidence." The others are LLL leaders, etc. I just don't know that I want everyone in our business, especially since we are still having to supplement.
Then from the other side, the friend who is coming to stay with us for the weekend has FF all her kids and told me once she thinks BF makes you " a slave to the baby"...so I am not expecting support there and am nervous to have her around.
I'm also really nervous about the weight check at the pediatrician later today...Of course we only made it 48 hours-ish EBF....
In sort of good news, I had a much better time getting him to latch all day yesterday using cradle hold...
Poppy, thanks so much for your supportive words!