Joy, can I suggest you try a sitting position (with pillows). I started with sidelying and I think it can be great, but doesn't give you as much control, which might be helpful to work on latch issues. Our favorite is cross cradle (Where the hand nearest to the breast supports the breast (in a c or v or whatever feels good) and the opposite hand and arm control the baby. The LC I saw told me I was being waaay too gentle with him. :) So don't be afraid to hold the back of his neck firmly and then when you see a good gape, you can bring him to the breast quickly. I don't have much advice for the nipple pain, I have somehow avoided that. The only thing I can tell you is do what feels right. The LC told me Lyle had a shallow latch but I have 0 nipple pain and he's obviously gaining very well, so I just ignored her and focused on other issues.
Okay, this is just my own experience, but I wouldn't worry about him not having as many diapers. I don't think Lyle was getting 4 oz from me at William's age, maybe more like 2.5-3.5? (this is my guess based on pumping and having weighed him after a feed at the LC) So he may be getting less but it's still most likely plenty! Especially if he's nursing more often (since breastmilk digests faster than formula) But I totally don't blame you for giving him a bottle to give yourself a break. You had a very tough birth and a big breastfeeding challenge right off. If your goal is to get him back EBF, I know you can do it! i did it and I NEVER thought I would/could. I really hope you can find a solution to the pain, though. I know some women grit their teeth and power through, but it seems like you both have had a rough enough time. It's hard enough to feed a newborn without dealing with so much pain. Will you see your doula again? Maybe she can help with a new position and latch concerns.
mtngirl, I'm so sorry you are having a rough time. I was really concerned about having to have my breasts exposed, I have issues about that. I have been okay so far but no real nursing in public. I am wondering if there's certain nursing wear, bras, or a nursing covers that would make you feel better, if you can just experiment until you feel more comfortable. Honestly, I think if you go back through this thread most of us have hated breastfeeding at one time or another! It is challenging and demanding and hurts and is all tied up in our own feelings about our bodies, our babies, and our birth experiences. So don't feel guilty. It does suck being the sole source of food and not being able to go out and feel like an independent person. You aren't the only one with these feelings. I hope you've had some better days since you posted.
Sol, thanks for all that info! I agree we have tried the change of pace (usually Dh takes him and walks around and brings him back when he's calmer) I'll look at those drops. So far we've tried Mommy's Bliss Gripe Water (which is just ginger and fennel sugar water, mostly. Works great for curing hiccups and he loves it, but not so much with the fussing) and Biogaia Probiotic drops (only two days in on that one, not sure yet)
I am wondering if there's some big hormone shift around 5 weeks, I've been kind of mess. When he has been fussy at the breast I've been so emotional about it, like he takes no comfort in me anymore. J was like, "what are you talking about, I've seen him asleep after nursing"..I was like, "no that was how it was before, now he hates me!" And J was like "no, I mean today." Ugh.
We'll see how dairy-free day 2 goes. I don't know if I got all the "hidden dairy" out yesterday, and I forgot to check my Trader Joe's granola and protein bar today. Ugh.