I've had a traumatic last 24 hours or so. I thought I had a plugged duct for a few days, but it just kept getting more and more painful and I couldn't seem to unplug it. It was painful to the point that I'd rather give birth again than experience that pain. Also, my breast was getting red and warm to the touch. When I started shivering and was really cold, we finally went to an Urgent Care clinic last night and discovered my temp was 102.3. Yikes. The doctor ordered some blood cultures, as well as two IVs--one for fluids because of my fever, and one for antibiotics (since I clearly have mastitis). Under the best circumstances, I'm a hard stick, but with my fever, it was nearly impossible for the nurses to find veins. Coupled with bad bedside manner, after 10 needle sticks I was pretty traumatized. However, I did feel better once the fluids were in me.
I had to come back in for a followup today. The doctor ordered more blood cultures (again the nurse had trouble), and was going to order another round of IV antibiotics. I was so upset at that idea that he said I could have the antibiotics as a shot in the butt instead. I chose that. Much better.
Then I was sent for an ultrasound of my breast to see if I had an abscess. Of course, with the way my luck is going with my whole breastfeeding journey, I had a large abscess. Thankfully we are past the days when that requires surgery, so the radiologist was able to drain the abscess right there (more needles, but this time not as traumatic).
So now I have to go for another followup tomorrow with an OBGYN. I am so frustrated and at the end of my emotional rope. There is such a big part of me that just wants to give up on breastfeeding. I'm so scared that tomorrow the doctor will still not be satisfied with my progress, and more invasive things will need to be done. I've cried so much in the last few days. I just want to have my breast back, normal and whole.