I'm so thankful for this thread. The last few days have been really awful. I posted in the slow nursing thread about little Elodie liking to nurse all day long. I thought that meant she was getting plenty to eat, but that it just took her a little longer because of her tight jaw and trouble latching. Anyway, at the 2-week visit this past Wednesday, the midwife discovered that she hadn't gained any weight at all in the previous week. My heart just sank and I spent the rest of the evening bawling. I felt like I was failing her somehow, and I just felt awful for her. Like I was starving my own child. It's a good thing my mom is here right now, because I felt myself going into an emotional, sleep-deprived-induced downward spiral into a really dark place.
The next day we went for a second visit to a lactation specialist. She deduced that Elodie's shallow latch is the big culprit in the whole situation, and the fact that I've been using a nipple shield on my bloody blistered nipples was a huge factor in her trouble with latching. As a result, she's been getting too much foremilk and not enough hindmilk, and thus not putting on any weight. So now we're on a strict schedule of nursing on each side for 10 minutes, and then 15 minutes of pumping (using a hospital-grade pump) and giving her the pumped milk. We've only been doing it for 24 hours at this point, but I think she seems more content already. So NewMumJoy, I am totally feeling you on the schedule thing and the way it takes over your life. I never imagined breastfeeding would be this difficult or complicated.
I am feeling sad because 20 minutes of nursing every 3 hours doesn't actually feel like that much. I miss having Elodie so close the rest of the time. To make things worse, as I mentioned in the weekly chat, my MIL is here this weekend, and is pretty much hogging Elodie to herself. It is awkward all around. Of course she is a big fan of this new strict 3-hour schedule we're on now. And she mentioned to me a number of times already, "She really needs to put on weight. I really hope there's nothing that's getting damaged developmentally by this." Yeah--thanks for your encouragement--and putting weight on her is our top priority right now!!!!!!!!!!! I am just feeling annoyed because she isn't doing anything to help around the house--she's only here to hold Elodie. To make it even worse, my MIL gets on my mom's nerves, so there is tension in the house.
Sorry for the rant. I am just feeling even more frazzled and emotional than I already was. I am so ready for life to feel a little more normal.
Hope everyone else's situations are continuing to improve!