We have done great so far. DD is 3 and is wonderful..love her to death..BUT I just don't know what the hell has happened. I feel as though I have lost all control and connection with her. She has been SO incredibly defiant lately..I feel like all I do is yell and scream We do not and have never hit her. I honestly stay DO incredibly upset with her that there are times I just don't want to be around her. She has a little sister who is almost 14 months and she is constantly being overly boast and aggressive with her. I know that she gets the yelling from us (sadly) but I just don't know how to fix it. She is also becoming increasingly aggressive and explosive towards us. I try so hard to allow her to express her emotions, but it is scary. Everything is a battle and I am exhausted. I try to read up on things and am *trying* to read Raising Our Children, Raising Ourselves by Naomi Aldort..but I seriously do not have the time.nor energy at this point. I have been battling severe PPD since DD2's birth and this is just spiraling it all back down.
I mean, I just don't even know what to do to set and enforce boundaries..or the fact that she cannot be mean to her sister. Other things I can deal with, but when it comes to danger, I am serious..but at a loss. I talk and explain and validate..but I am SICK of it as it seems to not be working. I have resorted to constantly snapping and yelling..I dread getting out of bed even bc I know it will start. My fiance is starting to really doubt GD..I try to explain that most of this is developmental but he is exhausted just like I am.
I just need something..anything. I feel like I am on a direct road to parenting failure and my once loving and close relationship with my DD is gone and will be for good. I know that how I am yelling and acting is hurting her..but I am just empty on resources. Help.