Just to give some history, I am a working mom with 2 boys ages 5 and 2. My awesome husband stays home with them. I had a series of mainly work events (scary potentially dangerous subordinate coworker and just tons of other general work stress) and a bit of family issues (loss of grandparents, issues with my mother, feeling distant from husband) all last winter, spring and a bit into summer. Thankfully, these issues are resolving, however I am afraid I tripped up my body and now have some big issues...
I had a few full panic attacks in the spring ( can't breathe, feeling paralyzed etc) and got Xanax. I tried Zoloft bc my psychiatrist also thought I have underlying depression/anxiety issues and I don't totally disagree with him. I had been managing all that well with regular exercise and other routines that would calm me down. I just think the extreme-ness of 2012 has been too much for my usual defenses.
Anyways, Zoloft was a disaster. I had so many side effects on a low dose of .25 and I constantly had to be on Xanax or buzzed in order to feel somewhat normal. I think that was what speed feels like. So I stopped the Zoloft. I still take Xanax when I need it. Mainly during my luteal phase.
Yeah I think I have pmdd... I get numb hands and the quick heartbeat often from the moment I ovulate until I get my period. Lately i can't fall asleep with ought Xanax or drinking. My main issues are weekends (all that unstructured down time!) and trying to fall asleep.
I've been doing acupuncture which has slowly helped some. I need to do more yoga I think. I still need the Xanax and/or alcohol though... Id like to know what has worked for others. I think the Xanax runs out in a month and I really don't want to do a different med (psychologist seemed to think Xanax was not good as a treatment).
I know this was way rambly... I'm interested in anyone else's rambly thoughts too