Hi ladies - just looking for a little support, or wise words, or something.... <3 Long!!
My partner and I relocated to the east coast (him last Oct, and me in Apr) to try to make a go of life closer to home - hoping to finish our off-grid cabin and start organic farming etc. Then we found out we were pregnant for the first time(!!)...so we moved 3 hours away to live in his parents house (they live out west currently until retirement) after realising how hard life was going to be without plumbing, power or a fridge when preggers....
We've spent the last 3 months in a tiny little town, him unemployed (receiving unemployment benefits from the gov) and me marginally employed at the local library (dream job!) - 60 hrs/month. We're 1.5 hrs away from our chosen Dr. & hospital, on country roads and I'm due on NYE... We're extremely isolated here - the only folks we know are his (sort of unstable) brother, and whoever I've met through my super-part time job. Lovely people, not folks I'd like to count on for emergency help or emotional support. I think I was mostly concerned about the prospect of me being here with a newborn, in the winter, with no transportation and him working 45 min away...Seems like a recipe for extreme depression.
I've been pretty gung ho since the beginning to move back to the city we left - better job opportunities, gyms with pools, mom & tots groups, and *jazz hands* friends(!!). He's been a little more reserved about the move - would prefer to be next to the ocean.
All of a sudden, after a long conversation with my mom, we decided to pack up all we own in our station wagon, put my notice in at work and head back out west. We figure it would be easier to do before our LO gets here. We don't actually have a place to move to, or jobs for when we get there, but we have friends to stay with in the meantime, and we are familiar with the city.
Added to this, I feel like I'm gaining a tonne of weight (bit of a sensitive issue for me...) and the Dr. I'm leaving was very unconcerned about weight gain (24 lbs at 22 wks) since everything else looks fabulous. I have been totally unmotivated to get any exercise or eat healthy (I think maybe I've ben fairly depressed since being here, with no friends the past few months - haven't really had anyone other than DP to share this pregnancy with, or any reason to leave the house - sounds awful, but it's true...).I'm terrified that I will end up having to go to a Dr. who is going to give me all kinds of hell about gaining too much weight. I'm nervous about finding a job obviously pregnant.
On the bright side, after the move, I will have better access to healthy food (more than 1 grocery store where we're going, and way better prices!), we will have more $ (eventually, after finding work), I have friends, and particularly one who is eager to start swimming with me regularly, the health care is better, etc.
It's just hard in my mind, to get from where we are to where we're going. We are leaving in 4 days.
I feel better having written it all out. Sorry for the long, whiny post.