Hey! I'm Michelle... Doing well, working on having a peaceful pregnancy after a recent loss (my first pregnancy).
My weird secret is this: after constant (but very light) spotting, I got an u/s with my last pregnancy at 8 weeks and it didn't look good. I was told to come back at 9 weeks to "be sure" and it was the worst week of my life! I kept praying everything would be okay, but two nights before the second u/s, I had a very clear dream in which I felt God was really speaking to me. He told me that, unfortunately, I would lose the baby, but that I would get pregnant again very quickly ("within 6 weeks") and the baby would be fine and would look like DH*.
Sure enough, I did lose that baby (luckily was able to pass it at home without complications), and looking back, it was exactly 5 weeks and 6 days after I stopped bleeding that I conceived again! So I am just trying to have faith in God that He/She knows what He/She is doing. Especially early on, I kept saying, "God's got this, God's got this."
It's tough at times, but we have both remained strong and faithful. And pretty joyful!
As far as the day-to-day, I'm feeling great now, as my m/s has passed-- I am 14.5 weeks and in what is supposed to be the I-Feel-Awesome trimester. So far, it's delivering! I'm still waiting to "show" (I mean, DH and I can tell when I'm naked, but at my family reunion this weekend, everyone just rolled their eyes) and to feel the baby move, but I'm sure that will come within the next month.
I've mentioned this on other threads, but DH and I have never been huge fans of u/s, so we've actually declined doppler and u/s-- except for the 20-week scan-- and will have to wait until at least our 19-week appointment to be able to hear baby on fetoscope... maybe later. I can COMPLETELY understand that many women, especially those who have had losses, are dying to see/hear babe ASAP, but our feelings both before and after the loss have been (shockingly to me, as I'm very science-minded!) kind of apathetic towards early u/s. In part, experience has taught us that-- especially early on-- at best these things only give us, personally, a false sense of control or relief, as there's little we can do about any of the information. Weirdly, that's given us some peace!
What else? I think I've mentioned DH and I have been together for 17 years and married for 14. A little outside the bell curve, here. We really did intend to wait to have kids, though maybe not quite this long originally. So apparently my birth control pills were working hard all that time, because I got pregnant the first time I tried, and then the second time I tried after the loss. I am very aware that we're terribly lucky, especially at our ages (not ancient, but 34 and 42).
And we're planning a HB... and... I will probably mention "Dr. Mom's" advice here and there-- my mom is an MD who had two unmedicated hospital births, and she will be in attendance at the birth (as a mom-- not a doctor, unless the MWs don't make it!)
Looking forward to getting to know y'all better!
*Which would be a nice bonus! He was possibly the world's cutest baby and, IMNSHO, not a bad-looking guy.