Hi all! I've been lurking for a few weeks and finally got to post a couple of things over the past couple of days.
Wow, I've just read all 48 posts here to get "caught up" with everyone. I can't possibly reply to everyone so I'll just say that I hope
this post finds you well and that everything is going wonderfully for all of you!
As far as how things are with me, I'd like to get a few things off my chest as it's been a bit of a stressful week or so. Last Mon. or Tue.? I had a tiny bit of brown "show"
one day and a tiny bit of slightly pinkish show the next day followed by nothing for a few days. It's kind of involved but on Thursday we met with the Midwife
(I'm hoping to have her through this pregnancy) to review my medical records, which include two previous c-sections, and I had mentioned the show so she had me come in instead of just talking over the phone. We'd hoped to try to hear a heartbeat but they'd had to take a Mama to the hospital a few days before so her better/main doppler was in the other midwife's van at her house and the one she had in her office wasn't working. She opened it up and the batteries were corroded and the one "contact" point was broken off, just my luck lol. I haven't heard the heartbeat or had any u/s' at all to reassure me yet and this is the first time I can recall having had any spotting and it's my 3rd pregnancy. She said it *might* have been from aaaah (my words here) the "bedroom activities" we'd had and I think it's very possible. Sat. night at around 3am I went to the bathroom and there was some red show that time. :( I haven't had any since then though. I've been waiting until Mon./today before I call the MW again. I'm wondering if it's because I took something that was flavoured with Peppermint Oil (vs just flavouring) for a couple of days. I looked it up afterwards and found that it's not good during pregnancy (even though the lady at the health food store said it was ok/just flavouring). We haven't "done" anything since last week and I didn't take any of that stuff after the spotting and haven't had any spotting since - maybe coincidence, maybe not?!
I felt pregnant almost right away, my tummy started rising, lol, boobs were hurting/tender, I was bloated and was even queasy (first time) until about week 11 for sure and gained 4+ lbs very quickly. All of a sudden, last week during week 11, I stopped feeling as bloated, had the spotting, had less aversions to foods and smells, got a really bad migraine, started feeling less pregnant overall (especially in my tummy) and I've lost all but .2 of the 4+ lbs I'd gained.
I know that a few of those more recent things could be because I'm right at the end of the 1st trimester and going into the 2nd. I've been trying to take it easy, just in case, like laying down on the couch while doing homeschool with the children, laying on my left side at night, etc. I have been trying not to stress out and worry but I haven't been very successful. I guess it doesn't help matters that I "had to know" and researched hypothyroidism in pregnancy and found some very disheartening possible effects on baby. The second-last time I had tests done my OB wanted me to see a specialist but after a month+ instead of having her retest (after me continuing/trying my natural thyroid stuff then taking myself off it due to how I was feeling) I went to my GP and got re-tested and he said based on my levels (even though one was so low and not even IN the range) that he thought I was fine and to re-test in 6 months. Well, that 6 month mark would be right about now I think.
DH has talked about it all with me some and has tried to help and be supportive in his own way. We were talking about the possibility of m/c and he said that maybe IF there was/is something wrong with the baby that maybe it's how it's supposed to be. He usually has some good/true/logical things to say and I think sometimes he's not quite sure how to handle certain situations. I have appreciated his input and care and concern asking how I am, cooking a little, and watching the children so I can nap/rest, etc.
I hope it doesn't seem like I'm only focusing on the negative, because I'm not. I've really been enjoying various aspects, including the children being very excited about another baby! I'm mostly expressing the concerns I have. I think I'm just in a sort of numb state until I know more and can't wait to know more! I'm mentally and emotionally trying to prepare for the possible worst while somehow still hoping for the best.
Well, I think that will do it for now. I'm really tired and have a headache so I'm going to try for some sleep. If you've read this far and are still with me, thank you!
Edited by malzimus - 9/19/12 at 11:19am