Man I feel like crap. I never want to go into my appointments. I always feel the baby move and from time to time I will check her heartbeat on my doppler at home. I have heard the strange heartbeat several times at home and never really thought much of it not experiencing it before but then today I finally go in and let the nurse listen to the heartbeat and when she hears it she starts looking at the other nurse in that "Uh oh" sort of way and grabs the sonogram machine, then tells me I have got to have a real sono done right then and there and to call my husband in to watch the kids since they aren't aloud back there. 
So I do, he comes, we look, and the doctor just sits there struggling with the decision to monitor or induce. I guess the arrhythmia is pretty bad. I feel like crap that I have been hearing this all along and for whatever reason convinced myself it may not sound normal but it was still ok.
Ultimately the doc decided to do NST's 3 x's a week to monitor and said he feared an induction right now is to risky for c-section.
This is my fifth child, but the first to have any sort of issues like this. I am so worried and my doc and midwife seemed a lot more worried than they wanted to say by their facial expressions, I didn't really get an answer as to what this may be or why it has happened.
Does anyone have any experience in this arena? There was a lot of talking and hubby and I were both sort of in a daze from the whole thing and I don't even know that they had our full attention. But they mentioned a heart attack due to the arrhythmia and that this would be the reason for induction. Does this sound right? Did we hear this right? I am trying to stay calm and write all questions down to take with me to my next appointment so that I can be focused and not blind sided.








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