is anyone else experiencing this, or have experience?
our birth was so wonderful, but the 2 weeks following it were very very challenging! Lina is almost 3 weeks now and i still feel like she could be someone else's baby. i wanted to be a mom for such a long time, and this baby was/is very much wanted and planned for, yet the experience hasn't exactly been what i imagined. i hoped to have a "love at first sight" experience, but when Lina came out i honestly felt like she was a stranger. maybe it has something to do with the fact that i really thought i was having a boy? i don't know. i have felt protective of her since birth, but i don't feel a connection....i feel sometimes like she doesn't like me, and that i don't know what she wants. and that makes me feel like a bad mom. i totally panic when she cries! i took her out on public today for the first time, to a nursing support group, and was very anxious when she fussed, and felt like all the other babies were happy with their mamas, and was somehow failing at parenting when i had trouble getting her calmed down.
i know that part of the problem is that i need to develop some confidence in my ability to parent/be a mom. Our breastfeeding got off to a rocky start, and i think that really surprised me and caused me to lose a lot of confidence.
anyhow, just wondering if any other mamas were going through something similar!