42 and scared to death

[frizzle814]

Hello everyone. I have never posted on a forum before, but here goes.
I have two children, 18 and 15. I had two miscarriages before my oldest and one after my youngest. I remarried last year.
I just turned 42 and I am pregnant for the 3rd time in less than 6 months. (My ob tells me that says a lot about the quality of my eggs, but thats not very reassuring) I had two missed abortions that started with cramping and bleeding right around 8 weeks. Both pregnancies started with all the normal symptims and then they just faded away. I am now 6 weeks, 4 days pregnant again. Having all the normal symptoms again, plus a few I didn't have the last two times. I am trying not to stress this time, but its very difficult. I haven't made my first appointment yet because I am scared to. I'm just reaching out to see if anyone else has been in a similar situation. Guess I am looking for a little but of hope in the midst of the despare I am feeling right now.
I apologize for sounding so bleak. Thanks for any advice and feedback.

[Earth Momma]

no advice but a hug

[joy2grow]

I am 41 and 5 wks pregnant after two miscarriages (at 12 & 10 wks) so I understand the anxiety you are feeling.  For the first time in pregnancy I had my beta hCG tested this time around.  Even though it's still so early, seeing the number rise significantly has given me a boost of confidence and hope.  I will likely have at least one more draw to check in before I see my OB at 11wks.  Perhaps that simple could help ease your fears as well?  Having to surrender control is one of the biggest lessons these experiences have taught me.   

Staying distracted by things that bring me pleasure has helped me stay remarkably calm all things considered.  I've been biking every day, gardening like crazy, writing in my journal more often, and listening to encouraging podcasts.  From a law of attraction standpoint, I think it's extremely important not to fixate on the outcome you don't want. Stay grounded in the moment and lift yourself up by any means that works for you. 

[NYMomof1]

Thank you so much for your words of encouragement - I'm also 41 and expecting my 2nd child in January.  After suffering two miscarriages last year (one at 7 weeks and the other at 8 weeks), I can't begin to tell you how emotional I've been the last 5 & 1/2 months.  Although the pregnancy has been fantastic thus far (thank God), I can't help but to think the worst due to my history.  I'm a seriously a nervous wreck!!  If I don't feel the baby move, I panic like crazy.  I say my prayers every day and ask God to PLEASE take over I can't do this alone.  I continue to keep busy at work, home, and making every effort to exercise.  So far so good (fingers crossed). 

Wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy!!

[stormysky]

I know this thread is a month old, but I am wondering how everyone is doing? I'm 44 and 12 weeks pregnant. I had my last child at 41 and that was after 3 miscarriages in a row.