This is going to be a bit of a pity party, so please bear with me.
Since my early 20's I've always had intermittent stomach problems, mostly the need to have a BM IMMEDIATELY. I wondered in amazement at the people that said they only have a BM at home, never when they are out. For me I usually feel the need to go NOW, and it can be a race to find a bathroom. Sometimes I can't make it in time. (Oh yes, the shame and embarrassment is awesome.) Plus I've been losing more hair than I think I should for over the last year. I think I even see some thinning now, which I understand is a side effect of gluten intolerance.
I have never put two and two together until very recently. This summer I was in cooking school and every morning I would have a bowl of cucumber soup (with creme fraiche as a main ingredient) and a big cup of coffee with cream. (I'm not a traditional breakfast food person.) Within a half an hour I would have to race to the bathroom. After that I would be fine until the next morning. (Which gave me some sense of security since I have to travel and hour each way on public transit with no bathroom access.) I normally steer away from bread, and flour in general, and have never had a sweet tooth, so I don't get much gluten in my diet. When I do have a lot of bread I end up with the same symptoms, so I think I have a problem with both gluten and dairy. And I should mention I LIVE IN FRANCE. The capital of the world for the best bread, cheese and dairy. The realization that I have to give these things up for good is unbearable. And will I never be able to eat in a French restaurant again? Gluten and Dairy is in EVERYTHING! The thought that I will never be able to have a tasting menu is a restaurant is torture...though would probably be great for my wallet.
Just last night I made mini blueberry muffins for a picnic at my kids school and I had to try one, OK two (one of each batch.) I can't send off food I haven't tried! I am paying for it this morning. But they contained both gluten and dairy, so I can't be sure what the trigger was. I just know that being in cooking school from November to March is going to be SO HARD. What am I supposed to do? Not taste the food I'm putting out? Right now I am just crushed, and feeling very down. I plan on eating gluten and dairy free for the next few days and then eating a few pieces of cheese and see what it does to me. I'm hoping that I can handle SOME dairy.
Oh, and both my husband and daughter are nut allergic, so I can't just substitute nut flours for baking. Are we really to be a nut, dairy and gluten free family? My son won't want to eat anything but meat!!!
Does anyone have any advice for me? Can I hear from some foodies that have faced the same obstacles I have? I just need to feel that I'm not alone.
Thanks in advance.







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