dakipode - hugs to you Sometimes a pity party is just what the doctor ordered. Seriously, trying to be zen has its own set of side effects and I feel like having the pity party or breakdown dissipates the "keep it together" mentality (in a healthy way).
I wanted to ask you about Clomid - I can't remember if you went into specifics here about it (and I'm sorry if you did and I don't remember) - do you know that you have something going on that Clomid would be of a help for or are you going to try it in hopes that it just helps overall? I ask because the end of this year is the time when DH and I said we would reconsider the medical route and I think Clomid could be a good first thing to try. Just wondering what led you to your decision and wanting to see if it might be a fit for me too. I guess I was always under the impression that it helped for those that don't ovulate or have really long cycles, but it also seems like it just sort of helps anything too.
And, I really love how you talked about the scientist in you being curious about what Clomid will feel like - that is such a great attitude. There are so many ways to look at something that you maybe didn't want to have to do and being curious about it in that way is such a cool way to see it and experience it. If I end up doing Clomid, I may steal your outlook as well :)
AFM: I am in the second week of the 2WW, but somehow, I have not let myself look at what day I'm on. I could be day 21 or day 27 for all I know. I know that if AF's coming, she should be here by the end of the weekend (at least). It's kind of fun not knowing the exact day, but it is work to not allow my left brain to figure it out - I actually have to tell it no and move on to something else when it starts going, "Well let's see the first day of your last cycle..." Nooooo! I'm hoping that not knowing will make those last few days more bearable because maybe I won't know that I'm so near them. Ha! The things we do to try to make the 2WW less painful!!